I have been drinking and smoking
what do i want,
why am i so troubled
fuck

离开我在没有决裂的时候
就让灵魂彻底的产沉落
喔... ...喔... ...

放逐过
还逃不出你的左右
怪只怪我把爱当寄托
一时迷惑
一路犯错

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀秋
怕看见温柔眼眸

怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你時而热情 時而冷漠的双手
多叫人心痛

You break my heart..ahhhhhh

放逐过 还逃不出你的左右
怪只怪我把爱当寄托
一时迷惑
一路犯错

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀秋
怕看见温柔眼眸

怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你時而热情 時而冷漠的双手
多叫人心痛

阿... ...阿... ...
阿... ...呜... ...

给我死心的理由
誓言融雪时别沉默
我的美丽只剩哀秋
怕看见温柔眼眸

怕断了唯一的出口
就无处可躲
你時而热情 時而冷漠的双手
多叫人心痛 心痛

damn this lyrics is i copy word by word from the MTV of 给我死心的理由
so had to read then type word by word only behind then i can copy and paste.
-.-

Entertainment time:

i tried to smile
i tried to pretend
tried to hold back
tried to give up
the more i do
the more i want
the more i tried
the more i want to give up doing
cause i know i can't
each and everytime i looked at you
i would feel like smiling just like how the heart feels

but now you wouldn't ask
we wouldn't talk
how i wish to talk and play
would you know how it feels
maybe you don't even care
maybe you don't even know
this is how life plays with the sanity

"I'm here for you," she said
and we can stay for awhile,
my boyfriend's gone
we can just pretend.
Lips that need no introduction
Now who's the greater sin
Your drab eyes seem to invite
(tell me darling) Where do we begin.

Fell too deep...


-.- okay, im fine this few days
training half way got police
awww..
then cut hair saw kewal and keekee they all
then MJ went back training
then dickson injured his arm while sparring with ash
then went to hospital
then i went home eat
then that's what happen in simple yesterday.

Was this over before...
before it ever began?
Your kiss, your calls, your crutch
Like the devil's got your hand
This was over before
Before it ever began
Your lips, your lies, your lust
Like the devil's in your hands

当你选择了云的距离
就这么自私做个决定
冲破天际飞去
排山倒海崩塌的回忆
也许无刻袭击我的心
痛得不能自己

或许你以为把这一座城市抛开
就可以纠结伤害
却不明白我需要你的爱
不管多少阻碍不求什么未来
不管命运会怎么安排
我会用眼泪洗去所有的不堪
狠狠地把心痛了断
深深地把一切重来

我需要你的爱像掉进了深海
也像坠落悬崖找不到地方可以逃开
别让那些谎言把爱给活埋
当心碎成一块一块
当爱碎曾一断一断
我会等待你的爱

我会等待(我会等待)



-.- drink, drank drunk
pengz went admiral with yk and stef after i went gym with
yt, rendy, yt friend (samuel)
train my abs and stuff hahaha
oh yah my hydroxyicut HARDCORE came
damn that berlinda huang ling LOL she say porn grr =.=

oh ya, drank 2 barrel of heiniken and ate sotong balls and calamari (:
im always stone-ing other then drinking lots of beer with stef
pengz, maybe in my mind was thinking
i want to get drunk i want to get drunk
but how fast i drink or what is still the same

until when going back home, i no cig already then took darren cig
smoke 2 mouth DAMN HIGH! then i started to become very seh suddenly
den same feeling like that time LONG AGO drink with april but not so jia lat
that time is the worst.
but i also end up vomiting =.= FCUK i hate it

okay entertainment time...


Feel like a clown
hiding my faces to the crowd
the thicker the make up
the more fear im impose of the fear that may expose to them
but i feel like dying
suffocation is killing me
i need to breath

the law give people 2nd chance
father and son give each other zillions of chances
but if i gave you chance
will you give me the chance that i want
or i give other people chance
will i get another chance
the answer is no
is this fair?
no
but this is the fucking reality
the world is so complicated with fucked up people everywhere
they say everyone is here for a purpose
then what is mine?



im just nothing in people's eye
nothing.
absolute nothing
but a fucked up person
doing in this fucked up world
listening to the fucked up beat of the clock
tickling my life away in this fucked up world

Today was cognitive, at first was like i want to 'cha bo '
but end up still in class then 'tong' until end of school
then after school met, yk, yt, kzai and ber suppose to walk to cwp MRT station
end up ber because going late for work then she had to go first

reach cwp MRT station, crap lah kzai lol
what balance the water bottle on my head and shit
LOL chat a while wait for ang ang come then me and yk and ang ang take train together
yk went to work
me and ang met mad at khatib station

then after that met van at orchard
we went to eat pepper lunch
i was damn hungry yet my food was the last to come.
we four ate the same one, CUT-STEAK yum yum not bad normal i could say.

watch step-brother haha that show damn funny
all the while i heard was fuck, penis, virgina and all these erotica stuff -.-
wah lao got one part he use his testicles to hit the drum set and really show his balls OH MY F**KING GOD.

write lyrics time!!

I thought love can stay
never thought it would be gone that fast
so fast that i haven't even caught a glimsp and it just slip away from me

i wonder how can someone change
but then i realise people do change

if it wasn't going deeper
then it would be fading
but if it would fade
why would i feel hurt

suddenly i feel your coldness,
where's the warmth that i once feel
it's too late to reminise the time

impossible to be back as per normal,
when does it start to happen.
too fast to realise or was it too slow to react

but it's okay now
i finally realise
im just nothing in your eyes

slowly day by day
me you would disappear in time
till then....


(OKAY END OF LYRICS!)
what is the last sentence you can add up yourself HAHAHA
damn bored lah -.-
OH YAH I WAS HAPPY TODAY TO TALK WITH ANG, MAD, VAN at border's coffee bean
it's been so long yet we had this kinda of talk and outing hahaha..

Dumb





Don't mess
with me






























Actually got more think i will upload in friendster

不会太久
主唱：江美琪
词:姚谦/ 曲:李伟菘
编：Adam Lee

转眼 微风 忽然停了
就像我们之间忽然就
什么都 不是了
这样也好
没有干扰
未来~可以由自己捏造
好不好

我知道你真的曾经深爱过我
只是你的心中还有其他的美梦
我知道分开的时候你也真的难过
只是不会太久

自怜 自责 都已走过
我喜欢我现在的生活
又自由 又寂寞
不是软弱
因为想透
与其~把爱变成了负荷
就放手

我知道你最爱的人绝不是我
我只是当时可以安慰你的梦
你不是喜新厌旧只是还没有把握
爱得不会太久

我知道你最爱的人绝不是我
我只是当时可以安慰你的梦
你绝不是喜新厌旧只是还没有把握
爱得不会太久
只是不会太久


This lyrics is about someone broke up,
then she say like that is good
because she can create a new future on her own

she knew that he really once really loved her
but now he have yet another dream
she know that when they broke up he's also sad
but it will not be long

The times when she pity herself, when she blame herself has gone
she loved the way her life is now
full of freedom yet lonely
she has already come on a set
rather then let the relationship become a burden
she rather let go

she know that the person that he really love isn't her
he wasn't the one that when new comes throw away the old
but love wouldn't be long


actually i was lousy at translating and i didn't translate one sentence if you realise.


peeps out there remember to grab every opportunity in front of you
never let it go, although sometimes you believe that (It's Never Too Late)
what if one day the hard facts come by,
and you were told that you were too late
it's too late
it's impossible now
what can you do?
cry?
take action?
till then what can you gain?
nothing
you may be crying,
but will the thing, person
ever come back?
never regret your actions
NEVER.
once you made a wrong choice
there's nothing you can do but move on
but this may seems easy to say but try it
you will know what is pain
devastated

Happy bdae to TSY DCB
i didn't went to cut cake, cause i sprain my back near shoulder now super pain
went home without my keys
called my dad to open the door
then went into my room, he nagged and rubbed my shoulder for me.
THANKS but im sorry that i once lied to you.
Lie to you i play basketball injured myself,
but actual fact i injured while training.
I lied to my mom too
sometime i just don't want them to worry to me.
they are old already
hais, how i wish i can accompany them everyday.
how i wish to have a happy family.
i hope to fight to earn money.
he nagged, suddenly i felt i have been so foolish to hate him now and then.
to know that he still care
otherwise he wouldn't have rubbed my shoulder so long till i nearly slept
even though its painful
i can't take off shirt and wear shirt without the pain
can't turn my head either.
wrist is pain too.
and that asshole ashley accidently elbow my head -.-
now got one big bump there.
its not i love injuries,i just don't mind in order to become stronger.

Life is full of regrets
at least
but today i heard something
very meaningful i think
i felt real.
maybe at least.
yt said that nothing is too late
i hope so.
i hope i'm not too late to say everything
i hope i'm not.

suddenly i miss my parents
they are so near yet so far
i hope i have the money to cure my mother
i hope i have the time and money to buy a house and accompany my dad
regret
recently i also regret one thing.

feel like crying
yet i don't want to
not that i'm emotional
anyway i'll be alright tomorrow
i hope the pengz now is not hiding under a mask
it's very tiring.

How i wish time had stop,
stop and rewind back
to the time that i care
for you baby

That i really want you to know..(know...)
from then to now that i really care
do you believe
that i love you
do you still have the heart me (ahhh)

from those words i,
can see that you have died in me

If you can only take
a look at me
till the day i stop breathing
i can't believe
that your heart for me has died

till now i still can't believe (hOOooOO WoHHhh)

If you can only take
a look at me
from the day i start loving
i promise you that i will not stop loving

how i wish you can
love me as before like that.

Bridge

If you give me a chance
chance to show you that
i really never really let you go

if you follow heartbeat
to the place where i stand......(Whoa WHoAAAAA...HAIIIIIIIiiIii)

If you can only take..
A LOOK ME (meee)
from the start when i love you
so from today
i know that you stop love me

i will..wait for you
wait for you love backkkkk .... meeee


nothing better to do
so i wrote the lyrics myself but tune from (Yi Yan Shun Jian)
although it's a anyhow write lyrics
but okay lah it KILLS MY BOREDOM IN SCHOOL argh super sian can!!

i was crapping during presentation
my eyes was a bit swollen lucky this is not W36M i think they would know (MAYBE)

Emo emo emo emo emo
emo emo emo emo emo

time is short
life is short
regenerate of time?
regenrate life?
impossible

i used to say impossible is nothing
what impossible may happen and have happen
what is the impossible

why life is full of regrets
i hate
i hate
i gonna fight for pain
fight w/o regrets
i regret PSLE not studying
i regret to gain back fat
i regret slacking in sec 3 and 4
i regret not playing for school when i was in sec 3
suck suck suck
i regret why my dad have to change
i regret not taking good care of my mom
i regret FUCKING LOTS OF FUCKING STUFF

Diu Lei Lou Mou Ge Lou Hi

還記得 小小年紀
松開我的手迷失的你
在人群里 看見你一邊哭泣 手還握著冰淇淋
有時候 難過生氣
你總有辦法逗我開心

还记得 小小年纪
松开我的手迷失的你
在人群里 看见你一边哭泣 手还握着冰淇淋
有时候 难过生气
你总有办法逗我开心

依然清晰 回忆里那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴
我们的生命先后顺序 在同个温室里
也是存在在这个世界 唯一的唯一
未来的每一步一脚印

踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心
未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记之间的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你！


还记得 小小年纪
松开我的手迷失的你
在人群里 看见你一边哭泣 手还握着冰淇淋
有时候 难过生气
你总有办法逗我开心

依然清晰 回忆里那些曾经有笑有泪的光阴
我们的生命先后顺序 在同个温室里
也是存在在这个世界 唯一的唯一
未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心



未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记彼此的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你！
OH..

未来的每一步一脚印
踏着彼此梦想前进
路上偶尔风吹雨淋
也要握紧你的手心

未来的每一步一脚印
相知相惜相依为命
别忘记彼此的约定
我会永远在你身边陪着你！



现在我唱的这首歌曲
给我最亲爱的弟弟
在我未来生命之旅
要和你同手同脚同走下去

Just got the song that i wanted.
By Ina - I wanted you!
Damn sad the lyrics and the song make me so emo
make me think so much.

Lately I've been thinking about what I can do
I've been stressing to fall back in love with you
I'm so sorry that I couldn't follow through
But I can't go on this way. I've got to stop it babe
You've been wonderful in all that you can be
But it hurts when you say that you understand me
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I've been pushing hard to open up the door
Trying to take us back to where we were before
But I'm done. I just can't do this anymore
'Cause we can't be mended, so let's stop pretending now
We've been walking around in circles for some time
And I think we should head for the finish line
So believe me. I, I am sorry, I, I am sorry, I, I

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you

I, I... I'm so sorry baby
But I, I... I gotta pack up and leave
But I, I'll always remember how we came close
... to being how I wanted to be
I wanted you baby
I wanted you

I wanted you to be there when I fall
I wanted you to see me through it all
I wanted you to be the one I loved
I wanted you, I wanted you
I wanted you to hold me in my sleep
I wanted you to show me what I need
I wanted you to know just how down deep
I wanted you, I wanted you


I will smile..true true?

My grades sucks
sucks everything that is in my way
Muay Thai i really need to excel in it, today i think i have to go down myself
hope there are people going down.
Everything in my life just sucks like fuck suddenly
FUCK OFF MY LIFE..
FUCK UP LIFE
I HATE EVERYTHING and HAD ENOUGH!!

Pierce tongue back already!!
Now aiming to do 2nd tattoo and train my body condition.
okok i'm super busy nowadays..