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Saturday, January 30, 2010
@ 1:39 PM
Is leaving the choice to make people happy?
I don't get it...
Why people always have this selfish thinking?
Or i have seen too much?

Why cant they love and yet stay?
Hurting?

It's not the last farewell ♥
Friday, January 29, 2010
@ 11:33 AM
I'm sorry i don't want to shed it down
I'm still the same me,
if you ever turn around the straight path we walked
you on left
me on right

You just have to turn around you will always find me
Standing at the same spot

I don't like to cry
Worst is in front of people

Some things i will just keep it although i knew it
something and still left being untold
yet i do not want to find out the truth
If i have never found out
things would not turn out this way

That time i was on the verge of going
You know my weakness
You knew it didn't you?

I always keep inside
Those words that was said
kept inside...

Forget it..
It of no use...

The ultimate breakdown...

Everything
talk is cheap
actions is cheap
all these can be fake
i can't see the heart
neither will i...

I'm always standing there

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 10:56 AM
wasteful tears – navi (ft. hyunah)

forget it.. we’re over. .
I don’t need a guy like you
if you’re going to be like this, why me
play around with other girls.

when the phone rings, you look at me
and tell me it’s your mom and answer it outside
telling me you need to go home asap
… you meet another girl

such obvious lies. Just shut it now.
why didn’t you tell me you have a girlfriend
did you think I wouldn’t know? Do I look stupid to you?
I want to let go of your hand now

forget it.. we’re over. .
I don’t need a guy like you
if you’re going to be like this, why me
play around with other girls.

you’re funny. Do you think you are the only guy on earth?
Grabbing my hand like that is useless
I hope that one day you meet a woman just like yourself
And become like me

Just hearing that you’re busy
Even If I missed you, I waited for you patiently
The text that said you had fun last night.. it came accidentally to me

I must be crazy, insane
Getting deceived again and again
I’m sick of it, your incurable disease
I just pity you now

forget it.. we’re over. .
I don’t need a guy like you
if you’re going to be like this, why me
play around with other girls.

you’re funny. Do you think you are the only guy on earth?
Grabbing my hand like that is useless
I hope that one day you meet a woman just like yourself
And become like me

I only loved you. The tears I spilled for you
I feel like they were wasted

hahaha you’re funny. Do you think you are the only guy on earth?
where would you find a girl like me?
don't ask me and get away
I’ll meet another men
and I’ll live joyously, freely day and night
without thinking about you bye

forget it, so that I can live like this forever .
I’m not interested in you anymore
do you think I’ll turn back if you cry
don’t even think about grabbing me.

I'm freaking addicted to this song !!
Damn nice song..
Damn nice lyrics

It's not the last farewell ♥
Thursday, January 28, 2010
@ 2:14 PM
Is it so fun lie?!

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 2:11 PM
I had enough of your koh ji mal!
Enough ...
Enough of those fake emotions
I want forget your existence
because it's all just a freaking night-mare

Fuck!!
I need to wake up..

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 1:54 PM
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK
FUCK

FUCKING CHEE BYEEEEEEE

Can those droplets fucking stop dripping like fuck?
sometimes i just hope,
get some freaking memory lost illness
or
maybe banging the wall helps
NA BEI CHEE BYE

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 11:07 AM
Hate to love,
Hate to be Good...
Please GOD,
May there be a head accident
So that it bang so hard that i forget everything
Like a night mare haunting me...

I'm sorry to some people
I can't help but to cry
I promise this is my 20 year old promise
I was thinking older people can cut why not me
why cut cause i will cut double all those shit
but...redundant

No use already
Freaking redundant

I hope i die soon
really soon
I won't hurt myself again
never,
sorry i shouldn't make people worry
when i'm 20 this year,
damn shit

oh yah..
To someone someone
I know that person may not know
but yah i still wanna say.

All along i didn't knew the truth
if i know that something is something
never mind guess i shall bear it all again

fuck it babe
So hurting
Fuck it babe....
I cant hate anyone but myself
for believing in people's lies

Lies lies lies and more lies

Im so sick of love songs,
Memento of ours is ALL LIES!!!

My eyes are raining with water
I bring you back from my memories
I promise myself i would be fine without you
but i can't help it

I cut to trying to fill my empty heart
I hate it. A day without you is too long
I pray to finally forget you (But it's a lie)
Without happiness can't be found in me

No tears well up
I don't want to live anymore

THIS IS BULLSHIT
It's pissing me off
The thoughts of you, I'm going crazy
I want to see you but they say i can't

That it's all over (But i'll be right there)
I'm so sorry but i love you - It's a lie
I didn't know but now i know i need you
I'm so sorry but i love you - out of anger

I push you away with those piercing words without realising it
I'm so sorry but i love you will you leave me?
And forget me slowly
So i could be in pain

Those words i say was all lies
Now i'm being left alone
The sight of me not knowing what to do
The text message that is kept inside
and always will be

And my habit of texting you and wondering where you are
I want to change
I want to laugh it all off right now

I hope this is all a dream
Because i'm nothing more than this
I still can't forget
No i don't, and i dont think i ever will
Did the scars i give you heal
I'm sorry but i never got to do anything for you

Girl, i'm sorry. But i love you
That's all i gotta say
Everything gotta be alright isn't it?
So damn, why am i crying

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 9:35 AM
微凉的晚秋
随着落叶擦肩而过
多少年
日升月没转瞬间过
冰冷的雨滴
打在温热的我的手
多少泪
顺着脸颊不停滑落

而我的梦深藏在心中
那里有甜蜜的幻想全是你和我
但你却说太遥远
梦已经不够
需要多些空间
让彼此再去寻找快乐

只想再听你说
你愿意爱着我
直到地老天荒下个世纪末
真的只想再听你说
在你心中我算什么
给我一个答案算不算太过奢求

难忘记熟悉的轮廓
期望能再紧抱着我
你却不肯回头

只想再听你说
愿意继续爱我
你却是低着头用力的沉默
真的只想再听你说
求求你不要再闪躲
才明白爱上你
等于爱上了寂寞
才明白爱上你
等于爱上了寂寞

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 2:39 AM
I live in your lies
Don't pity me,
cause i don't need your pity
your fake kindness

I'm not okay
I have to...
I'm not strong
But i have to...

I all along do not want to make choices
do nort force people to make choices
neither will i...

All i want is to be happy
simple...
Yet i've to make choices to be simple and happy

I saw the quote
If one day i were to give up
it doesn't mean that i have forgotten bout you
but is because i love you too much...

If you were turn back you can always find me
but i can never find you...

I live in your lies
I knew it all along
Yet i didn't say i bear it down...

What the fuck have i ever done wrong
I will never love again...
Love just sucks
When i think for people
have they ever think for me?

I ask someone this question
will the person that love you lie
the answer is yes...
hahaa..if love why lie

why cheat?

All along i'm like a total idiot
a total fool
now i cover up my full story.
Full stop

no more,
if someone were to turn back half way and say how much she feels for you
moral of story is never believe (:

someone teaches me that nth is forever
And i long learnt that if it happen once
it happen twice
and i believe in retribution
and i don't hate people

And i shall, stop toturing myself.
People are so scary..

So what if a bung is a bung
have to be strong??
yes in front of people
but time when it it pain too much people will seek alternative
We are human with emotions

I'm not talking about me

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 2:35 AM
























當你決定 你要離開我 
我沒有說什麼 
就當作你自由

有好幾次我都想挽留 
苦求也沒有用
就當作是寂寞

因為我能明白
他的溫柔 對你是種解脫
就坦白告訴我
誰是你的最愛

其實你很愛他 
對我的懲罰 
說你沒有想他 
是可憐我吧

我已沒有藉口
只能放手
不敢奢求
你說愛我

其實你很愛他 
他很溫柔嗎 
其實你很想他 
就說出口吧

我已不想多說
摀住耳朵
不想再次聽到你說
你很愛他

Do you believe in retribution?
Yes i do...
This is the past...

Nothing last forever...

It's not the last farewell ♥
Tuesday, January 26, 2010
@ 8:41 PM
Bought lots of application
Had production today

I'm still in school now
so tired
low blood already
My mind kinda no blood im dying due to the lack of blood
food
water
hahahaha

=.= Tomorrow i'm going to Orchard !! (:
Anyone wanna meet me there??? (:

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 8:42 AM
Sometimes... i just wonder....
off to school i'm late aww

It's not the last farewell ♥
Monday, January 25, 2010
@ 12:04 PM
If i were to be the "Monk and the Fish", by letting go is then i will get "you".
So do i have to let go, before i found you?
I'm sorry
I just can't forget about it yet
sorry peeps im not trying to be emotional
though i smile
but i seldom like i always do anymore
The stronger i be the more my heart ache inside of me...

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 10:53 AM
我这该死的爱, 不管有多难受我依然可以忍受。

我那反复抽不完的烟,
就像我一直都默默地站在一旁看着

你握住的手
你那灿烂美丽的笑容
亲爱的
那不是我,
但一切的一切

我都可以忍受
确实是这样
那是因为没资格

一个钟, 两个钟
等啊等
只想看到你一面
不想被你看到
我只想默默的等

我不会成为你的负担
我没那个能耐
为没有资格
不能做比较

比起来,
我算什么

爱是什么
我看到的是什么
不算什么

It's not the last farewell ♥
Tuesday, January 19, 2010
@ 3:47 AM
If crying can lessen my pain i can cry a sea of tears
If cutting can replace the hurt my heart felt i can cut maybe what people say chop off the hand better, or donate all my blood to a vampire.
If punching the wall, can replace emotional pain i would punch until my bones turn into powder.

If loving hurts so much, i dont know what to do
Im so lost,
crying doesn't bring me anywhere

I bless the people around me
Everyone moves on
just like how i always say to others
Very str8-forward the reality is cruel.

I hope i can be like what i say
I also want to be happy
I like one Emo fuck shit
Staying at the same old fucking spot
Couldn't move on...
could go back
for no one is there to support me
or there is but i dont admit the fact that there is.

I want care and concern
I know i have
yet i don't want
Hahaha.. dont get what i mean right?

I fucking LOST..
I so reluntant to do everything
I want to be stronger
If can i long ago would be attach
Aiyah wtf i saying lah CBCBCBCBCBCBCBCB

CAN I STOP BEING SO EMO!!

CCBCCBCCBCCBCCB
Why some can be flirt why the flirt is not me
Hahahhaa..
Why i cant be a fucking player
WHY WHY WHY!!

Why am i soooOOooO stupid
Im TWENTY THIS YEAR FUCKING TWENTY
CBCBCBBCBCB
i always seems like yeah i so strong i move on easily
CCB!!
PEOPLE GOT SEE THAT I DWELL IN THE PAST
FUCK FUCK FUCK KNNBCCB!

MY 100PERCENT LOVE IS NOTHING

CCBCBCBBCCBCBCBCBCBCBBCBCCBCCBCBCBC
PEOPLE DONT REALISE I LOVE THEM TILL I GAVE UP
ISIT!!!!!!
I GOT SO BAD MAH...

THEY SAY ARIES FORGET FAST
YES WE DO
WE CAN LOVE ANOTHER FAST
LIKE FUCK I CAN!!
hahhha.. JUST KIDDING
i just randomly vending my pain
i duno wad i doing lah..
just saying random thoughts
how i hope everyone get outta my life..NOW

It's not the last farewell ♥
Friday, January 15, 2010
@ 11:03 AM
丁当 - 我爱他作词:
黄婷 作曲:陈威

全他的轻狂留在
某一节车厢地下铁里的风
比回忆还重整座城市一直等着
我有一段感情还在漂泊
对他唯一遗憾是分手那天

我奔腾的眼泪都停不下
来若那一刻重来
我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏
都不肯醒来我爱他
跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘

我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂
最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾
又怎么样呢伤了痛了懂了
就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他
轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘逃不开
爱越深越互相伤害越深的依赖
越多的空白该怎么去爱

我爱他
轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏
都不肯醒来

我爱他
跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心深深伤过却不会忘
我和他不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂
最终的荒唐
如果还有遗憾是
分手那天我奔腾的眼泪都停不下

来若那一刻重来
我不哭让他知道我可以 很好

It's not the last farewell ♥
Thursday, January 14, 2010
@ 1:15 AM
Changed the lyrics from
Show Luo "Love don't travel alone"
“爱不单行”
Hope it sound nice...
Try it people!!
It's been so long since i written lyrics
so, long...
I haven't had inspiration since kinda long
Busy doing this and that

Re-edited!! Again


爱一个人往往是痛苦的
爱一个不会爱上我的人

明明知道会被你伤害还是去相信
也许是我太笨
也许我太爱了


痛是你给我的
我一直都相信
所以伤了自己
为何你要选择

伤害我那么深
难道你一点也不惭愧吗


会渐渐消失吗
这累积下的痛
你因该不懂吧
为何我还爱你

还一直爱着你
爱着一个不会爱上我的人

我尽力的痛你是否受过
我恨你为何一再抛弃我

是我不适合还是
因为你不会爱我

你拉远的距离
我已不再追了


痛你给我的
我会慢慢长大
我不要想你了
为何你偏要走
一句话也不留
你为何要就这样抛弃我
哦~


会让我更坚强
因为我要证明
我不再需要你
不管我怎么骗
事实都不会变

那就是我会一直在守候
因为我猛然还是爱着你

Copyrighted PENGZ

不管流了多少的眼泪
实事都不会改变

一而再
再而三

历史重演
那种心痛的感觉
是我成长的过程

你是否承受过
那种不管怎么哭
不管多么想
实事不会改变

那种说不出的痛
我无话可说

我什么都不想说
我也什么都不会说
痛就由我来承担

你会好好过
虽然我看不惯

damnit i don't wanna write already hahaha..
My Tibits end here...

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 1:05 AM

愛不單行



找不到人说心里的寂寞
找不到人都怕变得沉默
找不到命中注定在一起的人以后
很多人都笑我
一个人过生活


只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下


是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕



用不完身边泛滥的自由
还是怕孤单是一种诅咒
羡慕我能飞的人为何在天黑以后
还是宁愿回到
爱情那个枷锁


只有简单笔画
却比想象复杂
很安定爱变化
我爱过几个人
也被爱过几遍
却还是没能将幸福留下


是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕


是不可输的吗
为何我还相信
她不是不欣赏
我在等一个人
在等我的永恒
告诉我爱不单行别害怕

我在等一个人
在等我的 永恒
告诉我爱不单行相信她

It's not the last farewell ♥
Wednesday, January 13, 2010
@ 2:27 PM
The hands that i can't hold, someday become my anonymous friend

Totally mood-less
Thank goodness someone came pei me smoke (:

muahahaha..

I'm having anemia

Yes i don't say
I have nothing to say
I don't wanna say anything anymore

Fuck off

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 11:21 AM
楊丞琳 - 匿名的好友

獨送昏暗不離的風
為何你被愛
那孤寂的天色好冷
溫柔和夢在胸口浮現你的面容

也許我們當時年紀真的太小
總愛懵懵懂懂走進各自天空
該怎么說讓彼此選擇
當思念還轉動

不能握的手
從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收

不能握的手
卻比親人更親厚
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔 最溫柔

當又一次美麗的風
回憶了被愛
那孤寂的天色好冷
溫柔好我在胸口浮現你的面容

也許我們當時年紀真的太小
總愛懵懵懂懂走進各自天空
那是什么 讓彼此選擇
又不僅是尊重

不能握的手
從此匿名的朋友
其實我的執著依然執著
與你無關淚自行吸收

不能握的手
卻比親人更親厚
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的溫柔 最溫柔

不能握的手
卻比親人更親厚
其實我的執著 依然執著
卻決心和你不再聯絡

不能握的手
卻比愛人更長久
當所有如果都沒有如果
只有失去的擁有 最永久

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 12:43 AM
Sometimes i felt i think too much

I have so much to say
I want to express so much
I can't

Maybe i'm thinking so much
I'm easily contented i guess
Maybe this 1 year plus single made me don't know how to care?
Hahaha..
idk

Maybe i do...

I feel like i'm a fucker sometimes
I don't know
I have feelings too

I'm a human too
I needed care too
I needed love too eh
hahah.. these words sound so familiar

when people use these words i will shoot back
Yes, but only you have feeling meh?
Others don't?

Sometimes im just being contradicted by myself
Today i din went sch

Missed my UT i guess
sigh

I can't sleep i seriously can't
till late morning

(Entertainment Time)

I've always been waiting
waiting for even short replies
A simple reply brighten up the day
finally i understand

The insecurity i have
makes me seems like a despo

Yet i have to stop myself from being one
because i'm not

these short stories i write
these sentence i think of
the things i go through
the things people go through

life isn't so tough
but comes to love is unpredictable

simple word i love you
simple being together could be like getting so tough

how many passed opportunity
which can never come back
never again
even how much tears you shed
i understand the feeling

i understand the feeling of even though how much begging
pleading
yet,
no replies
no answer
no reaction from the person you love

My memories have stuck
painful memories that made me grow up to become someone like this
till now i can't forget
can't forget that particular scene

Maybe since then i have form a barrier to prevent myself from getting hurt
to become ignorance
but seriously am i like that?

no...
i'm not

i hate to say this
but i'm kind

i hate to say this but i rather hurt myself at times
even if it meant to be my own happiness
have i hurt my loved one?
upteen times i guess

through all these years
i become so scare of loving
to really put down all my heart in loving
but i still do

i still do and i still will,
Why everytime when i decided to love someone wholeheartly i got hurt?

why?
why when i put 100% people do not at the start?

Do i look like a fucking idiot?

Past
all these have pass

Memories still haunting me now and then
to make me always think
have i become someone whom always think so much?

I dont want seems despo
nor paranoid
cause i hate it
Luckily i'm not

I hate people who suddenly go MIA
why?
In actual fact im not angry
but rather sad

Since the first goes MIA twice
Made me become so scare..
maybe fear?
i don't know
suddenly leave

Break up this word mean so much
never put this word like it could be said so easily
seperate and break ain same
but i just don't like
after the second

Fourth let me learn so much
Learn my mistake
that i made
if you are not confirm with your feeling
don't be together simple
end up hurting more people and that person whom love you.

Fifth made me have so many painful memories
that really made me grow up somewhat heartless at times

Sixth, if you never persevere on
why cant persevere on
set back?

hahahaha... my entertainment so boring today

past love
past opportunities

Sometimes when i look back i so feel like crying out loud
but it's only me that dwell in
that i miss it

I have not learnt this lesson

craps lah
hahaha
I'm still waiting

Maybe i should grow up more

Tibits time!

我默默的等待
等待着那简单的回应

爱昏了头
我变得很不想我自己

好没有安全感
那种滋味
好难受

好想好想
能够看到你那也足够了

痛是我长大的过程

It's not the last farewell ♥
Monday, January 11, 2010
@ 3:28 PM
Chalet was fun,
simply drinking, slacking, eating and the most having lots and lots of fun with my boutique people.
Get to know old boutique people.
Hahaha..

Aww..Tiring yet fulfilling and simply i really enjoyed it very much.

The 1st day after chalet was work,
Work then back to chalet.
wow tiring man i'm like sleeping 2hrs per day only dude!

But i really enjoyed it
Wasn't drunk
cause i'm simply a good drinker
Muahahhaa..

Enjoyable days pass very fast..
Sun went back @ 11am plus
slack with stef till like.. 6++pm GOD!
we are like talking non-stop!
hahahhaa..
Got eat.. blahhhh

It's the imperfection that cause me want to know you

It's not the last farewell ♥
Thursday, January 7, 2010
@ 3:29 PM
I hate to be kept in the dark,
I want you people to tell me on your own
Till i really asked it will be too late
don't ask me what i know
Cause i know a lot of things that you dim that i don't know but i know

I can think on my own
I have 6th sense that you never believed.
I can sense things is wrong and this is normal

Don't ever think about hiding,
I may be naive
I hate myself
Hate myself for forgiving and forgetting things easily

Sometimes i just fucking yearn to be heartless
FYI TO YK
To you to others im the same so NO POINT KEEP SAYING ME!
I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU SAYING ME BITCH!

Or else never think about contacting me ever again..

I like to say a lot of hurtful words at one shot when i'm angry
but i hate it when people remembers them...
This is me...
Fucking me
I WANT TO BE FUCKING HEARTLESS

It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 3:25 PM

楊丞琳 - 雨愛

作曲: 金大洲
填詞: Wonderful

窗外的天氣
就像是 你多變的表情
下雨了 雨陪我哭泣
看不清 我也不想看清

#離開你 我安靜的抽離
不忍揭曉的劇情
我的淚流在心裡
學會放棄

*聽雨的聲音 一滴滴清昕
你的呼吸 像雨滴滲入我的愛裡
真希望雨能下不停

讓想念繼續 讓愛變透明
我愛上給我勇氣的 Rainie Love

窗外的雨滴 一滴滴累積
屋內的濕氣 像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停

雨愛的秘密 能一直延續
我相信我將會看到 彩虹的美麗*

冷冷的空氣
很仔細 我無法呼吸
一萬顆 雨滴的距離
很徹底 讓愛消失無息

Repeat#*

屋內的濕氣 像儲存愛你的記憶
真希望雨能下不停

雨愛的秘密 能一直延續
我相信我將會看到 彩虹的美麗

It's not the last farewell ♥
Wednesday, January 6, 2010
@ 1:03 AM
I hate the feeling of people coming and going as and when they like
But guess this is part and parcel of life
Actually i feel that i'm so naive
Just like what arians are
Naive...
A key to destruction of their own life...

To actually believe and keep on believing others of what they say until they found out
Until they realise changes in people (:
But Lucky we are also good in adapting i guess
I guess life goes on with or without these people...
No choice eh?

Due to my ultra pack things that i have to do...
Yes, saddness dwells
How long can it last?
For arians whom always look back
They are nostalgic people..
but guess some people aren't

what to do?
Still live on with life..
I'm so exhausted already
Doing all my stuff already kills half of my life

Today...after school
Just went back home
Who also don't want meet
Emo... ?
Nah i guess
I guess i just want to be alone,
since no one understands how busy and hectic my life was now...

Guess what i even forgot to eat
HOW CAN SOMEONE LIKE ME FORGOT?!
I'm so hungry now yet so lazy to go eat at 1am

Just now did felt dizzy
WHAT TO DO?!
LIFE MOVES ON!

It's not the last farewell ♥
Tuesday, January 5, 2010
@ 2:38 AM
My work load is getting heavier,
I can sense it
And my body is soon breaking down

Reply messages text people are getting harder and lesser
all my time i'm focus on my laptop
or TCC

Even affect my work.
I don't wanna give myself a break
sometimes i wonder about my ability

But seems like people sees and think i have the ability
Do i have the ability?
In class,
Talked about internship
and my faci was so willingly to helped me
because he sees i have the strength
and he wants to help
and he can.

But when asked,
i stunt i awe

Do i really have th strength?
Do i really have the ability?
I'm always confidence when comes to work
but this time i'm stunt by my own actions too
"Where is my confidence"?

I actually WONDER IF I HAVE THE ABILITY?!

Sometimes, i just wonder
maybe subconsiously i have always wonder
am i a good friend
a good lover
a good in whatever
am i?

I used to use...I'm
but now ..
why it has to be am i?

People view me as i view myself in a different way
true...
because they can see things i don't
but what if i'm the one feeling that i couldn't do it?

I lost my confidence
I need to find them

For work,
For future i can scarifice nearly everything
because i want to work towards my goal..
but
contradictingly is can i?

It's not the last farewell ♥
Monday, January 4, 2010
@ 3:04 AM
The moment you come across an Aries, the first thing that comes to your mind is his/her friendly nature. The friendliest person in your neighborhood will most probably be an Aries personality. People having an Aries profile cannot tolerate injustice, always fight against it and will defend the weak. Aries, The Ram, is the first sign of the zodiac, considered to be the infant representing birth. Just like an infant, he is also aware only of himself and his needs. However, he is not selfish. It's just that he is totally ignorant of the fact that his needs may be causing you some inconvenience.

The innocence of Aries people is enough to cover their, sometimes, aggressive behavior. This naiveté brings fearlessness, while at the same time making them highly vulnerable. They trust people easily, get hurt in the process, forgive and forget, and then, trust again. An Aries person is beyond shrewdness and fallacy and can never lie, not even to save his life. He is what he seems to be. Qualities like subtlety, diplomacy or modesty just don't gel with Aries symbol. An Aries can be calm, wise and serious, but not before he has gone past youth.

He is pretty impatient, but liberal with money and material things. Frankness, lack of stability, fear of physical pain, optimism and impulsiveness are some of the basic Aries characteristics. One of the warmest and the most generous zodiac sign, Aries always prefers fame to money. He may get extremely angry in a minute, but the anger seldom lasts for a long time. Aries people never nurse a grudge and completely forgive and forget. They will never let you know that they are hurt.

They are never shy of apologizing, but they will be hurt if you remember the harsh words they said in anger, but didn't mean. Gossip does not interest an Aries and for him, people are either black or white, without any shades of grey. There is one thing an Aries can never fall short of, conversation. He can speak about anything & everything under the sun. He lives in the present and is a realist, yet believes in miracles. Aries chase success, not waiting for it to fall in their lap, and don't accept defeat. Failure can never keep them down.

Most of the Aries people are involved in business or creative arts or are involved in planning and organization. If an Aries does something for you, don't forget to express your gratitude. Otherwise, he will be deeply hurt. However, that would not stop him from helping again. Aries usually stick to their opinion and won't listen to anything they do not believe. They have a contemplative side to their personality. The simplicity is blended with the blind passion of a born crusader. Aries is mentally strong and always one of the pioneers.

It's not the last farewell ♥
Saturday, January 2, 2010
Wedding Dress @ 12:12 AM
I would argue
Then you would cry
As you’re struggling, I would only get stronger
My heartaches behind these shadows
My face brightens up as I see your smile
I worry that you might notice my feelings
And I get scared that the gap between us would widen
I hold my breath
Then I bite my lips
Then I pray that she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

You, who never understood my feelings
Because of that, I ended up despising you
Then I wished a misfortune upon you
But now, my eyes are dry
I try to talk to you but I realized that I’m alone
Every night, I would look back and think
If I already knew the results
Then I close my eyes
Then I dream an endless dream
Then I pray she would leave his side.

Baby, please don’t hold those hands
Cuz you should be my lady
Please look at me, I’ve been waiting all this time.

Once the music ends, you’ll be with him forever
I prayed and prayed that this day wouldn’t come
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore
The wedding dress you once wore

By all means, be happy with him
So I can move on
Please erase me out of your heart
Although I tried my best but, no oh~

I’ve been living the lies for too long
Yet, she would look at me and smile.

———————

ROMANIZATIONS + KOREAN

니가 그와 다투고
niga geuwa datugo
때론 그 땜에 울고
ttaeron geu ttaeme ulgo
힘들어 할 때면 난 희망을 느끼고
himdeureo hal ttaemyeon nan huimangeul neukkigo
아무도 모르게 맘 아-아-아프고
amudo moreuge mam a-a-apeugo
니작은 미소면 또 담담해지고
nijageun misomyeon tto damdamhaejigo

니가 혹시나 내 마음을 알게 될까봐
niga hoksina nae maeumeul alge doelkkabwa
알아버리면 우리 멀어지게 될까봐
arabeorimyeon uri meoreojige doelkkabwa
난 숨을 죽여
nan sumeul jug yeo
또 입술을 깨물어
tto ipsureul kkaemureo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

내 맘을 몰라줬던
nae mameul mollajwotdeon
네가 너무 미워서
nega neomu miwoseo
가끔은 네가 불행하길 난 바랬어
gakkeumeun nega bulhaenghagil nan baraesseo
이미 내 눈물은 다 마 마 마르고
imi nae nunmureun da ma ma mareugo
버릇처럼 혼자 너에게 말하고
beoreutcheoreom honja neoege malhago

매일 밤 그렇게 불안했던걸 보면 난
maeil bam geureoke buranhaetdeongeol bomyeon nan
이렇게 될꺼란 건 알았는지도 몰라
ireoke doelkkeoran geon aranneunjido molla
난 눈을 감아
nan nuneul gama
끝이 없는 꿈을 꿔
kkeuchi eomneun kkumeul kkwo
제발 그를 떠나 내게 오길
jebal geureul tteona naege ogil

Baby 제발 그의 손을 잡지마
Baby jebal geuui soneul japjima
Cuz you should be my Lady
오랜 시간 기다려온 날 돌아봐줘
oraen sigan gidaryeo on nal dorabwajwo

노래가 울리면 이제 너는
noraega ullimyeon ije neoneun
그와 평생을 함께하죠
geuwa pyeongsaengeul hamkkehajyo
오늘이 오지 않기를
oneuri oji ankireul
그렇게 나 매일 밤 기도했는데
geureoke na maeil bam gidohaenneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

부디 그와 행복해
budi geuwa haengbokhae
너를 잊을 수 있게
neoreul ijeul su itge
내 초라했던 모습들은 다 잊어줘
nae chorahaetdeon moseupdeureun da ijeojwo
비록 한동안은
birok handonganeun
 no oh
나 죽을 만큼 힘이 들겠지만
na jugeul mankeum himi deulgetjiman no oh

너무 오랜 시간을 착각 속에
neomu oraen siganeul chakgak soge
홀로 바보처럼 살았죠
hollo babocheoreom saratjyo
아직도 내 그녀는 날 보고
ajikdo nae geunyeoneun nal bogo
새 하얗게 웃고 있는데
sae hayake utgo inneunde

네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu
네가 입은 웨딩드레스
nega ibeun wedingdeureseu

It's not the last farewell ♥