i know everything had been lies
Truth is i don't trust people whom lied too
so i understand
but then i knew you lied too
THANKS

It's sad
when i don't know what i'm thinkin

that's why i wanna stopped lovin'
cus of me myself
cus of lies...

From today i swear i won't tell lies
no matter how people hurts
i don't care
no mateer how pain
no matter quarrels no lies..

i can do it..
i hate it since this is wad everyone wants

i can't stopped
crying
i duno y
i just can't
i hate it
it makes me weak

i am wrong .
people wan me to hutt them w/ truth
ok
i was wrong to protect
did it the wrong way
no i'm stupid
in order to protect i got blame for so many things
i bare it ..
i kept quiet
people just don't uds

truth?
what is truth

i'm meeting jessica ang them soon
so better stop (:
HAHAHHA

When you decided you wanted to leave me
I didn't say much
Just treated you as you were free

So many times I wanted to pull back
Intense begging was of no use
Just treated it as loneliness

Because I can understand
Her kindness was a kind of release for you
Just honestly tell me
Who do you love the most?

Actually you really love her
As my punishment
Saying you didn't think of her
was pitying me, right?

I already don't have any excuses
I can only let go
I don't dare demand you
to say you love me

Actually you really love her
Is she really gentle?
Actually you really miss her
Just say it

I already don't want to say too much
I cover my ears
Don't want to hear you say again
that you really love her

當你決定　你要離開我　
我沒有說什麼　
就當作你自由

有好幾次我都想挽留　
苦求也沒有用
就當作是寂寞

因為我能明白
他的溫柔　對你是種解脫
就坦白告訴我
誰是你的最愛

其實你很愛他　
對我的懲罰　
說你沒有想他　
是可憐我吧

我已沒有藉口
只能放手
不敢奢求
你說愛我

其實你很愛他　
他很溫柔嗎　
其實你很想他　
就說出口吧

我已不想多說
摀住耳朵
不想再次聽到你說
你很愛他

To me everything changes in split seconds
working is hard
but i had to endure
for my life isn't in luxurious

I can't blame upon my life
cause i still lucky

Seeing people having fun
while working from night till the sun rise
i don't mind
cause at the start i really can't now
slowly people improve

With those nice colleagues there
i'm contented
sometimes i think
working is another choice
is a choice to let don't think bout some things
relief for that some things
but care totally into my work

but what if i stop working?


I've far more things i knew from human that teaches me
I just can't understand
human beings
with each and everyone thinking differently

Never regret your choice
Regret and still have the chance
there's so many saying
so which is the truth

Seriously the truth is
bout LOVE
i didn't want to have a single thought bout it
it's pure stress
for people that are so stupid to think that a guy and female
or a bung and any girl that can't be pure friends GOD that's stupid
but when it turns out .. something

sigh I REALLY do NOT want to grow up!

Love comes and go why not take the natural course
i just understand WHY PEOPLE DO NOT UNDERSTAND WHAT I SAY!

My care and everything people just don't understand
pure shit?
I talk harshly is because i'm LIKE THAT!
that's why i wanna change myself

recently i felt bit by bit
BUT i still can't stop myself when angry
vulgarities just came out non-stop till i cool myself down
I wanna change all this

before i would consider love ONCE AGAIN
sick and tired
yet...i'm so NOT OVER IT!!
i think people whom know or don't know me will be puzzled
and think other ways bout that I'm so NOT OVER IT!

forget it
Don't ask me
talk bout love makes me agigtated now
seriously for some..

For people whom they think they know me
please stop it
Jus F*** off
you will never know a shit bout me if you're NOT ME!!

i'm ultimate stress

唐禹哲 - 新歌

最近我學會唱一首歌
一首我心裡的歌
低音是無奈的喃喃著　
也聽不到淚掉著

最近我最愛唱一首歌　
一首可能你也愛的歌
副歌的情緒在高高的懸崖等
等著大雨瘋狂了

我們都容易對號入座一首歌
反覆讓歌詞深深呼應著
可能不同　看不看開的執著
可能太痛　有些畫面謀合

我們也容易忘記舊歌學新歌
受過傷還是有愛的資格
在每段難得的啟程
醞釀我們的轉合
唱一首歌　我最懂的　心歌

最近我學會唱一首歌
一首可能你也愛的歌
副歌的情緒在高高的懸崖等
等著大雨瘋狂了

我們都容易對號入座一首歌
反覆讓歌詞深深呼應著
可能不同　看不看開的執著
可能太痛　有些畫面謀合

我們也容易忘記舊歌學新歌
受過傷還是有愛的資格
在每段難得的啟程
醞釀我們的轉合
唱一首歌　我最懂的　心歌

我們都容易對號入座一首歌
反覆讓歌詞深深呼應著
可能不同　看不看開的執著
可能太痛　有些畫面謀合

我們也容易忘記舊歌學新歌
受過傷還是有愛的資格
在每段難得的啟程
醞釀我們的轉合
唱一首歌　我最懂的　心歌

Xing Ge (New Song)
Artist: Danson Tang

Recently I learnt to sing a song
A song from within my heart
The bass is the mutterings you can’t help
It’s also not hearing the tears fall.

Recently I love singing this song
This might also be a song you love
The wait on a high cliff sets the mood of the chorus:
Insane after waiting for the heavy rain

We can easily identify with an allocated song
Repetition lets the lyrics echo deeply within us
Maybe it’s different. The stubbornness we’re trying to see through.
Maybe it’s too painful. Some of the images we seek merge together

We, too, can easily forget the old song and learn new ones
You still have the right to love after getting hurt
In each section of the rare start of a journey,
It brews our turning point and our conclusion
Singing a song I know best, a heart song

Recently I love singing this song
This might also be your favourite song
The wait on a high cliff sets the mood of the chorus:
Insane after waiting for the heavy rain

We can easily identify with an allocated song
Repetition lets the lyrics echo deeply within us
Maybe it’s different. The stubbornness we’re trying to see through.
Maybe it’s too painful. Some of the images we seek merge together

We, too, can easily forget the old song learn new ones
You still have the right to love after getting hurt
In each section of the rare start of a journey,
It brews our turning point and our conclusion
Singing a song I know best, a heart song

We can easily identify with an allocated song
Repetition lets the lyrics echo deeply within us
Maybe it’s different. The stubbornness we’re trying to see through.
Maybe it’s too painful. Some of the images we seek merge together

We, too, can easily forget the old song learn new ones
You still have the right to love after getting hurt
In each section of the rare start of a journey,
It brews our turning point and our conclusion
Singing a song I know best, a heart song

Because deep down I'm still a G

And i don't want to come between you and your man
Even though i know i treat you better than he can

Girl i can't help but wait
till you get that with him it don't change
can't help but wait
till you see that with me it ain't the same

Can't help but wait
till you see you for what you really are
Baby girl you are a star
And i can't help but wait

Listen, it ain't fresh
To just let him call the shots
you're a queen, you should be
Gettin' all that someones got

You should be rockin' the lastest in purses
Bracelets and watches you're worth
Much more thaan occasional
I love you, i'm thinking of you

And i don't wanna come between you and your man, no
Even though i know i treat you better than he can

Get it together
you can do better
see is believin
and i see what you need so

I'm going to play my position
Let you catch what you've been missing
I'm calling out, girl cause

I can't help but wait
Till you get that with him it don't change
can't help but wait
till you see that with me it ain't the same

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what i tell myself
What we had has come and gone
You're better off with someone else

It's for the best i know it is but i see you
Sometimes i try to hide what i feel inside
And i turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, i'm not over it
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you, not over you

Aren't memories supposed to fade?
what's wrong with my heart
shake it off, let it go
Didn't think it'd be this hard

Should be strong, movin' on but i see you
Sometimes i try to hide what i feel inside
And i turn around, you're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why you're so hard to forget
Don't remind me, i'm not over it
Tell me why i can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe i regret everything i said
No way to take it all back, yeah
Now i'm on my own, how i let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand

Thinking of You - Katy Perry


Comparisons are easily done

Once you've had a taste of perfection

Like an apple hanging from a tree

I picked the ripest one

I still got the seed


You said move on

Where do I go

I guess second best

Is all I will know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that

I Was looking into your eyes

You're like an Indian summer

In the middle of winter

Like a hard candy With a surprise center

How do I get better

Once I've had the best

You said there'sTons of fish in the water

So the waters I will test

He kissed my lips

I taste your mouth

He pulled me in

I was disgusted with myself

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into...

You're the best

And yes I do regret

How I could let myself

Let you go

Now the lesson's learned

I touched it I was burned

Oh I think you should know

Cause when I'm with him

I am thinking of you

Thinking of you

What you would do if

You were the one

Who was spending the night

Oh I wish that I

Was looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Looking into your eyes

Oh won't you walk through

And bust in the door

And take me away

Oh no more mistakes

Cause in your eyes

I'd like to stay...

AHHHH F. THE HOUSE!!
STOP DOING RENOVATIONS I NEED TO SLEEP CANT YOU PEOPLE DO IT AT NIGHT!!!
Drill and drill non stop for hours
I'm Super bloody tired becus all the drilling was waking me up
okay never mind
WORST
my house has nth to eat!
okay never mind
WORST
no gas for me to cook
and i was so bloody lazy to step outta the house
and i'm HAVING SIGH-NESS (FLU)
sneezing continously
argh what a bad day..

Day 2 - Creative Concepts (T201) @ E24F-B
Day 8 - Digital Media Arts (T205) @ E25A-B
Day 4 - History of the Arts (T207) @ E24F-B
Day 1 - Arts Criticism & Analysis (T208) @ E24Q-B
Day 3 - Directing & Performance (T225) @ E25H-B

09 module!!

Hahaha the quiz somewhat true
but still got another reason why i do not want to commit (:

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Commitment   Even though it may not always seem like it, deep down you are afraid of being committed to anything serious. You love the feeling of being carefree and not having anything tying you down. You're afraid that someone or something that may tie you down in life, will keep you from reaching other goals. You may also be afraid of getting hurt. You need to open yourself up more to possibilities and realize that sometimes it's good to be committed to something that you really care about. Just because you're an independent, free-spirited person doesn't mean that being committed to anything is going to change who you are.
Looked down on
Losing Someone
Being Alone
Disappointment
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

LOVE EUUUU

WARNING WARNING
Monday i will be officially 19!! hahaha
pengz

Yeah Butter Factory is having a private party tomorrow and saturday
FINALLY my 3 weeks training will be up to use...
Prove i can do it!!

Too bad it isn't open for public
dear friends i'm so sorry (:
but aiyah my friends also around 18 plus minus multiply divide (opps)
hahhaah.. for those 21 and above good (:
can come and find me!!
for 21 and below ladies i'm so sorry ):

anyway don't think those folks would wanna come too
okay that's for all.. (:

Yeah finally going for Traffic police test
it's on 23 april hahaha directly 1 month after my b`day!!
sigh* everyday i'm having sighness (squeeze non-stop)
Everynight made me can't sleep
Yeah i will work hard for my TP and get my bike on that day if i have the money
HAHAHHAHA i hope to pass!!!

It's a no work day
and i am freaking bored at home
but at the same time i am tired too
just that i can't sleep back
due to **flu
and aiya just can't sleep
*yawnz

Kelly Clarkson - All I Ever Wanted Lyrics and Mp3 :-

Tear up the photographs
But yesterday won't let go
Every day every day every minute
Here comes the emptiness
Just can't leave lonely alone
Every day every day hey hey
This second-chancin's really getting me down
You give and taken everything I dreamed about
It's time you let me know let me know just let go

All I ever wanted all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby cause I all ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

I'd rather walk alone
Don't wanna chase you around
Every day every day every minute
I'd fall a thousand times
'Fore I let you drag me down
Every day every day hey hey
Your new beginning was a perfect ending
But I keep feeling we've already been here before
It's time you let me know let me know just let go
[All I Ever Wanted lyrics on http://top10mp3download.blogspot.com ]

All I ever wanted all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby cause I all ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

Tell me with so many out there
Why I always turn to you
Your goodbyes tear me down every time
And it's so easy to see that the blame is on me

All I ever wanted all I ever wanted
Was a simple way to get over you
All I ever wanted all I ever wanted
Was an in-between to escape this desperate scene
Where every lie reveals the truth
Baby cause I all ever wanted
All I ever wanted was you

The Pussycat Dolls
I Hate This Part lyrics

We're driving slow
Through the snow
On fifth avenue
And right now radio's
All that we can hear

Now we ain't talked since we left
It's so overdue
It's cold outside
But between us its worse in here

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know this is the part
Where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

Everyday seven takes of the same old scene
Seems we're bound by the laws of the same routine
Gotta talk to you now fore we go to sleep
But will we sleep once I tell you what's hurting me

The world slows down
But my heart beats fast right now
I know (i know) this is (this is) the part where the end starts

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through my fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take your tears
I hate this part right here

I know you'll ask me to hold on
And carry on like nothings wrong
But there is no more time for lies
Cause I see sunset in your eyes

I can't take it any longer
Thought that we were stronger
All we do is linger
Slipping through our fingers

I don't want to try now
All that's lefts goodbye to
Find a way that I can tell you

But I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I hate this part

I gotta do it
I gotta do it
I gotta do it

Oh
I hate this part right here
I hate this part right here
I just can't take these tears
I hate this part right here

i can't say more bout people's life
but i know it's a sluttish thing to sleep at guys house drunk

Hi five .. You will be the 2nd person in my life to hate..
maybe next time.. won't but now yes..
but i don't think won't at least ..
cause it's the different situation from the 2nd r/s

but i don't give a damn if you hate me
hahaha!
and hating people is tired
i don't have those energy now

but NOW i have SUPERB energy to hate

I never so clear,
never knew that she would be so *****

Intoxicate me with words
I thought i was unclear
i thought i was wrong
i see it clearly
she's just you know at a peak of time needed comfort

hahhaa..
know what

i used to think that words said by people bout eu were so wrong
now i admit
and i see it off myself

no person will scold using so much vulgarities
hahaha..
i should know it
and i know it..

i have no regrets..

生命还有更有意义的事
除了爱， 还有更美好的东西在等着

在我有生以来
以让我感到最真诚， 的人
还存在着， 但也是个回忆而已

去多好笑的回忆
但多都是不表面的

还有我现在要说
我从来都没有爱过
我的第六恋爱的人（：

No one will wait forever
everybody moves on, but some stuck refuse to move on
but my motto of live
Memories are meant to fade for us to move on
true?
No, cause memories do not erase by themself

I've one secret kept long
super long
damn no one knows
and can not put into words
cannot pin down
cannot write down

another thing
I like remain this way
simple,
because..
i ***** ** **** *** ****** * ****
but ****** this way is happy enough
because * ***** *** ** **** *** ****** * ****
*** ******** but ********
****** **** *** ****
BECAUSE I HAVE ALREADY **** *** ******

seriously
i hope to write it down

i really hope that ****** can understand
oh yah i hope to turn back the fucking time

so everything doesn't happen

** *** ** *** *** will be the ****** **** * ****

My current goal is to work hard
may it be studies or current work

sigh hope to get bike licence soon
so that i can be despatch rider
cause i can't work full time with butter factory after i reopen school
that's sad
cause means no income
till then i will work hard

i don't know what the future will be for me
but i will await
and there's a part of me still left behind (:
which part?

secret..

OH GOD.. im sOOoooOo SAD
My UN-Educated "friend said my friends are bitch
So uneducated with no respect GOD!!
please help that friend..
hahaha means everyone that i know are bitch?!
HAHAHAHHA!! GOD ..

Finally i can sleep till so late
pengz but tomorrow gonna work
so that's is adulthood
world almost 1 week and chill how many days only

dread these type of living but to live
sian
im stuck at home because of rain

am i that a bad person?
i'm so..regretful i should say
but then hahaha no one knows what i truely regret
so let's keep that a secret (:

“If I were a flower, then now I would be a bud.
I shall treasure the beginning of my youth without any regrets.
This disease, why did it choose me?
Fate. It can't be put into words.
I want to make a time machine and go back in time.
If it wasn't for this disease,
not only I could enjoy falling in love but I also
wouldn’t have to rely on anyone and live by myself.
I really don't want to say things such as 'I want to go back to how things were before.'
I recognize how I am right now, and I will continue to live on.
Therefore I definitely won't run away.
That's what I’ll do. Definitely, always.
Even if it's like that, I still want to stay here.
because this is the place where I am.
If you look up at the sky after falling down the blue sky is also today
stretching limitlessly and smiles at me...I'm alive.
People shouldn’t dwell on the past. It's enough
to try your best in all that you're doing now.
Reality is too cruel, too brutal.
I don’t even have the right to dream.
As i think about the future, the tears will come out again."

“Mom, can I get married?”


Credit from Ikeuchi aya diary
(1 litre of tears)

Tears keep rolling
people do change..
i just .. never mind
gonna sleep tomorrow gonna wake up early for work
i just know what you are..