♥ Memories are meant to fade for us to move on

Saturday, November 29, 2008

@ 9:03 PM

你想要的我不明白

明明可以爱得很自然

两个人世界多简单

就是我爱你你爱我不难

你还是离开

你的决定与我无关

我能理解我不会责怪

这是你给我的答案

你要我接受却还要我等待

等不到一个未来

我不相信爱很难

没有一点温度残留下来

你失踪的爱我的幸福跟你离开

谢谢你那么坦白

原来失去以后比较愉快

不会再伤感

就算爱很难我也不怕失败

一定有一天我会比你想象更勇敢

你带走了爱我在原地不曾离开

谢谢你让我明白我学会灿烂

一个人勇敢

Nice lyrics..Im so addicted to this song

一个人勇敢

转眼微风忽然停了

就像我们之间忽然就什么都不是了

这样也好没有干扰

未来可以有自己捏造好不好

我知道你真的曾经深爱过我

只是你的心中还有其他的美梦

我知道分开的时候你也真的难过

只是不会太久

自怜自责都已走过

我喜欢我现在的生活

又自由又寂寞不是软弱

因为想透与其把爱变成了负荷就放手

我知道你最爱的人绝不是我

我只是当时可以安慰你的梦

你不是喜新厌旧

只是还没有把握爱得不会太久

我知道你最爱的人绝不是我

我只是当时可以安慰你的梦

你绝不是喜新厌旧

只是还没有把握

爱得不会太久

只是不会太久

My laptop is in hospital

so i took back my compaq laptop

(:

Lucky i have a spare one DUDE

sucks how am i gonna do my UT on tue?

Keep listening to 一个人勇敢

Somehow everyone

Have their little secrets in their little hearts?

I know deep down

Very deep down

Maybe they don't wanna admit

But everyone from what i see

Has their soft-hearted side

I starting to get a clearer picture of everything

Sometimes people are just wearing a mask on their face

They won't admit or really say the truth out

They will lie

but we will just believe

this is human

We're not super humans that can know when one is lying

We're so fragile

so so so fragile

anybody can lie and get away

till they see or hear it themselves

sometimes what you see may not be true

listening may not be true

I think human are so complicated

even me

i have complicated thinking at times

yet i can be very simple minded and know nothing

Yet i can guess

I will ask

or find ways to know

yet hide

yet want to know more

I just find people are so interesting

Maybe after i take diploma in NewMedia

I go take up psychologic course

hahaha..

actually that's what i wanted last time

when i have the passion to be a doctor or psycharist

Going to bath now

Need to see doctor for my super swollen eyes ):

saddening !! hahahahah..

wish me luck

AND LAST..

IM NOT A PERVERT

I just don't know whom to trust..

don't know whom to believe at times..

so complicated

I scare to be lied ..

i feared..

It's not the last farewell ♥

Friday, November 28, 2008

@ 12:11 PM

Shall blog this way
I'm happy very happy (:

I drink cause i very happy
blog isn't about pin-ing down your thoughts
but it is something that you used to Entertain people

How many ~~tears~~ i shed when i was singing
Especially those heart-aching songs
wow i can sing "Yang Pei An - Da Hai"
well i still have "high" pitch-es
hahaaa sing like yer bitch dude!

actually i can sing very manly too.
But just maybe some people feel a man would sing better (:
cause man voice is still MAN voice

Now im in school currently my laptop is in hospital
Think i also going land in hospital soon

I haven't go see doctor for my eyes.
So sad the "ball" in my eyes become bigger!!
wow..
i can go and die (:

maybe people would want me better off dead
i got so bad ma?
sadden eh...
really got so bad?
think bout it.. (: seriously

It's not the last farewell ♥

Wednesday, November 26, 2008

@ 3:58 PM

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 12:59 PM

YES I DID IT!!!! YES!!! YEAH!!! VAL IS SO CLEVER!! (:
but i bet there other ways to disable this too =.=
Blog is just so dangerous (:

~~Sigh so sad~~
im so so so sad
You told me you sad bout your past
okay i understand..
but aren't those past already past why will be sad
aren't you move on?

you told me bout how JW treat you
make me so like giving up
if you think he is so good why love me?
if i don't love you why would i ask you to be together?
why can't i even be friend with my 6 other best friend

i like to be friend with them
you can message and care for him
you can go accompany people at their school for their break
why not me?
am i that so not important?
what am i to you?

you said you don''t know what am i thinking
i also don't know what you thinking.
you give me the feeling you still like him a lot

sigh ..
i feel so suck
you tell me bout him so much is for me to give up?
i can't do anything sia..
really nothing

only people whom really understand will understand
I FEEL SO WEAK..
I NEED TO BE STRONGER
I simply feel so sad..
so feel like drinking

Hello peeps,

~~If you know nuts bout me~~
Don't judge me without knowing me..
First impression will only give you the surface
Deep down those feeling who will know
Who will really understand
Sucks..
I pin down my thoughts my feeling
Not for people to judge..
Entertain, i would say entertaining even though it wasn't entertaining at all

~~I hate to shed tear infront of anybody~~
I hate the feeling of being weak
I need to be stronger
I feel that one day i will just break-down
To people maybe i am fine
I laugh i looked okay
Maybe that will only be the times i laugh
So please treasure when i laugh

Yawns
Sigh~
I also want eat that ***SOMETHING
I want i want i want!!!!

Fuck my Life
Fuck my Background
Actually i have a good life (:
Actually i am contradicting myself

I want to shout
I want to drink
I want to fight
I want to ...Argh

I want to relieve ..
(pUuuUuuuuUuuTtTtt~~~~)
What a relieve (:
hahahaa..
I hate ME, MYSELF and I

Hate myself for being ~~weak~~...

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 1:57 AM

sigh..
compare compare compare..
i don't like but i will
sad
sad
sad
sorry im not a good person (:
sigh..
i thought i already very honest
yet..
sigh..
sigh..
sigh..
haix..
sigh.. sigh..
Why..
hais
haiz
haix

Memories are meant to fade,
for us to move on.
Thinking bout the past won't make you a better man
but learning from the past mistakes will.

It's not the last farewell ♥

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

@ 9:54 AM

NBCCBKNNCCB!!!

Had swollen eyes again (:
pengz morning woke up...
can't even see my cute eyes can (:
dots -.- I DON'T WANT EAT SUPPER ALREADY

Getting fatter all thanks to those delicious supper (:
Think i wanna go start my bike and car again
i wanna faster just get the fucking liciense lah (:

Having flu now grr
keep squeezing fanatically in class now O.o

fucking broke
broke fucking..
shit lah.. (:

im sick sick sick sick sick sick sick sick
i wanna slim down -.-
grr ... disturb sia HONEY!
thinks that im a blog distract me from blogging
okay back to blog

in class..
listening to xin dong xin tong
don't know which idiot switch on the opposite table eating RICE..
i'm not hungry though but asked them to buy rice for me..
HONEY!! grr..stop touching my face -.-

pengz..

my eyes half close already lahhh
i so want go home..
i want go on diet
(val jia you stop the temptation of SUPPER)

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 4:48 AM

~~Anyone know what i'm feeling now?~~

~~How i hope so...~~

~~I can let go everything~~

~~ANYTHING..~~

~~Free myself for just a moment~~

~~ain saying that i'm what aiya don't know lah~~

~~Fucked up..~~

~~Define Val:~~

~~Happy-go-lucky~~

~~Hot tempered~~

~~Dominative~~

~~Straight yet not so straight forward~~

~~Like to Lame and joke~~

~~Know how to be serious when needed~~

~~Like to hide my own feeling~~

~~Hate to show that i'm weak~~

~~Hate people to misunderstand me~~

~~hate people don't trust me~~

~~hate people make assumptions~~

~~predict what will happen when it hasn't~~

~~maybe i wasn't a good person~~

~~yes i'm not~~

~~i have super duper ultra bad temper~~

~~you can't shout at me~~

~~cause i'll pay you double or triple if you do that~~

~~you can't hurt me cause i'll find ways to hurt you like that too~~

~~true?~~

~~is that me?~~

~~see it for yourself~~

~~i hadn't been in ultra good mood these few days~~

~~times when i laugh~~

~~are times when i'm working~~

~~unintentionally being entertain by customers~~

~~i think a lot~~

~~seriously what have become of me~~

~~or because i have other side which is good and can tolerate~~

~~i can if i want~~

~~but i will collect and let go once~~

~~that's me~~

~~i will dig up the past~~

~~that's when the worst part came in~~

~~i love to have trust~~

~~at least i know i'm being trusted and thus i won't do it~~

~~i'm fucking stubborn~~

~~the more people don't want~~

~~the more i want~~

~~the more people hate it~~

~~the more i want to love it~~

~~i like to try new things~~

~~yet i feared of addiction~~

~~i want let go..~~

~~free myself~~

~~i don't wanna drink and die~~

~~i don't want smoke and die~~

~~i just want to feel nothing~~

~~and feel high~~

~~feel ultimately me~~

~~shout~~

~~scold~~

do

~~whatever fuck shit avalible~~

~~i don't know what i want~~

~~but somehow i know what i want~~

~~if i want means i want~~

~~if i don't want means i don't want~~

~~i can be force~~

~~to do things i don't want~~

~~i can..~~

~~the most i will remember this~~

~~but yet at the same time i am soft hearted~~

~~and also i tend to forget things easily~~

~~somehow i don't feel like going school~~

~~UT what is it?~~

~~i want go on holiday~~

~~i need a fucked up holiday~~

~~maybe i need earn money first~~

~~I love to make friends rather then enemies~~

~~even is ex i would like to force them to be my friend~~

~~expect those that betrayed me and i really hate them~~

~~i want...~~

~~cause i feel it's okay~~

~~be friends only~~

~~why not~~

~~sigh..~~

~~i don't know what to do or say~~

~~currently i fall in love with the song 滾~~

~~nice song to play~~

~~nice song to sing~~

~~damn damn damn fucked up..~~

(:

~~im sad~~

~~yet im happy~~

~~yet i don't know~~

~~i'm just confuse~~

~~i hate this mixture of lots of feeling~~

~~it just sucks~~

~~why i can..~~

~~why~~

~~those of question and queries~~

~~i have my own set of insecurites~~

~~but i just couldn't show~~

~~i simply don't know how to react in a nice way~~

~~i don't know how to say out~~

~~i know i would be the bad guy~~

~~i don't want~~

~~i rather bear it all without anything~~

~~i rather bear it all..~~

~~all myself~~

It's not the last farewell ♥

Sunday, November 23, 2008

@ 8:19 PM

some photos taken from my cousin blog

photos taken at the wedding dinner (:

MY COUSIN ALL GIANT!!

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 5:07 PM

~~I'm still me maybe just a little different from how i'm last time?~~

~~I'm more emotional now but somehow i don't show much to people except people.~~

~~It's normal how the people whom understand me don't understand me now.~~

~~cause i'm contradicting myself...~~

~~I don't understand myself much anymore.~~

~~But i feel that i have a good temper now.~~

~~People whom felt i'm dumb is cause,~~

~~they feel i'm not myself at least i'm not that bloody tempered.~~

~~I feel it~~

~~I know what's happening to me~~

~~I don't say~~

~~doesn't meant that i'm stupid nor i don't feel~~

~~doesn't meant that i don't care~~

~~Actually not only have i change~~

~~i saw a drastic change in people~~

~~But whom am i to judge for i'm not the judge nor the jury~~

~~I felt bothered~~

~~I felt pain~~

~~I felt almost anything that isn't optimistic~~

~~when i'm alone~~

~~(p.s no one knew what happened)~~

~~but i preferred to be left alone~~

~~cause i know if someone whom is there whom understand me~~

~~whom console me~~

~~whom...~~

~~whom..~~

~~i will break~~

~~i will break down~~

~~into zillion pieces~~

~~I know im not me myself and i~~

~~Maybe i like or i loved myself now~~

~~at least i'm more tamed~~

~~I'm tired of getting tired of getting angry~~

~~people think i really so like being angry~~

~~I'm tired of getting misunderstand and always have to explain this and that~~

~~I hate it actually~~

~~being misunderstand really can make me cry~~

~~then i have use my precious time to explain things which are not the way it is.~~

~~I rather bare all the burden...~~

~~I'm so not feeling well..~~

~~headache..~~

~~swollen eyes~~

~~nothing which is good~~

~~People whom are on the male side~~

~~do they always have to be the one acting strong~~

~~when they themselves sometimes want to let go and relax?~~

~~To cry when they needed to~~

~~To act like one piece of strong shit when they are actually scare~~

~~Ya this is at least for what i think so..~~

~~Have to...~~

~~or else being labelled as weak~~

~~useless~~

~~sucks...~~

~~I can't say much~~

~~but at least for now this is what i feel~~

~~despite all this..~~

~~i still have lots of negative stuff to say~~

~~but till then i shall just keep quiet and go sleep~~

(:

~~For the sake of my head~~

~~my eyes~~

~~...GOOD NIGHT!~~

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 1:52 PM

My swollen eye (SADDEN)

okay friday went polyclinic with her*
while i had my eye swollen she caught a flu!
-.- that's bad
after that .. actually i can't remember much only know after that met al then met jayven went amk ate mac.
Bus-ed to TPY played pool till late night around 1plus?
Cab-ed back to Yishun Safra opposite that 7-11 bought vodka and went to 655 drank only 3 of us shared and damn sia we drink damn fast i think.
Pro us (: i bought a Guinness draft too to accompanied my lonely vodka with sprite (: seriously i hate vodka (:

well i don't drink without reasons (:
okay shall skipped that part.
saturday woke up at 1plus
bla bla bla..
went to my cousin wedding dinner at OCC
was fun taking photos with them
DAMN i wish i had the photos!
I'm DAMN short la as compared to ah yao and ah ping
grr -.- but looks normal (:

Fiona's kid was damn CUTE!!
I pinch his chubby cheeks EEEEE...SO NICE THE FEELING -.-
(so wrong)
Food was acceptable actually I'm fine with anything
ate a lot and drank bout 6 glasses of red wine (:

After dinner went down to OCC played pool
damn ex.. =.=
i won all the match (:
LOL you* better buck up! (:
hahaha she* said she don't wanna touch pool again HAHAHA
(I DON'T BELIEVE!)

shall blog later when i had my lunch (:
HUNGRY PANKS KILLS!

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 1:59 AM

It's not the last farewell ♥

Friday, November 21, 2008

@ 2:43 PM

Nowadays lots of people are getting sick, so people out there!
Better take care of yourselves okay! (:
And for those whom are sick, i hope you will get well soon alright!
actually loves sick too >.<

damn my eye getting even more pain day by day
-.- don't know what happen also like kana box like that XD
so currently my eye is one big one small.
later i'm going polyclinic see doctor for my swollen eye

just now went out smoke at admiralty park
walked go see near my school that japanese buffet.
wow that's cheap though the ambience is OKAY only -.-
lucky Muay Thai is not in school anymore and i never went MuayThai already
-.- imagine go Sakura that japanese buffet resturant eat
people see all the MuayThai people training is like SO TURN OFF LAH!

okay damn current time check 2.51pm
and we still haven even present yet haaha dots O.o
damn im so tired and my eye is damn pain.
blink also pain, open also pain
close also weird. (GO AND DIE LAH VAL!)

Basically im so tired now a days
i wanna work more days
earn more money!!
YEAHHHHHH!!!!

Dear God,
i pray that someday someone would just miraculously
transfer me lots and lots of money into my bank
DAMN!
think i'm bloody dreaming...

I pray to be more "man"
be more rich
be more good looking
have bigger brains (not size but knowledge)
have more girls (JUST KIDDING!)
slimmer but musculor
more clothes
more branded
fight in the ring

I thank God in the name of Jesus...AMEN

Phew another day of day dreaming..
this sucks..

~~i hope loves get well soon~~
i hope bekah would cheer up
i hope yk would cheer up
i hope tkk get well soon
i hope al go eat shit
i hope ky have more money
i hope yt become fatter
i hope kzai and jayven meet me soon
i hope *AHEMSsSsss..good luck
i hope my cousin wedding well
i hope we don't think so much
i hope to drink and die
i hope to give loves happiness
i hope to not think..
i hope to die suddenly
not to say im emotional
neither that i think a lot
just felt guilty bout lots of stuff..
suddenly thought a lot of stuff
i used to hope that im can ONS around
play around
fool around
eat med (those med)
wow be a gangster tried all that out damn
how fun it would be

Fuck people upside down..
but come to think bout it...
damn..

this wouldn't be me if i do that (:
i love you..

It's not the last farewell ♥

Wednesday, November 19, 2008

@ 9:35 AM

Lyrics to Wanna Be With You :
(ft. V. Nice)

Ooh, ooh, yeah, yeah, yeahI know that you wanna talk about it
But I gotta put it in your mindI feel like we've been through this story a thousand times
I feel like we've been going around and around in circles
Ooh why, we gotta put this behind us, yeah, yeah

Baby, listen to me, please don't walk out that door'
Cause if you ever need me
I'd be lost, I'd be going crazy (I go crazy)'
Cause I don't want nobody else (no, no)
I just wanna be with you (with you)
You're the only one who completes me baby
You're the one who makes me whole

It's not the last farewell ♥

Tuesday, November 18, 2008

@ 9:50 AM

yawns damn bloody tired sia.. -.-
cognitive today UT today WAH 8am then woke up WeetWootWeet!
But im not late and am present
damn suck when i reach school check LEO DAMN!!
Fu*k my grades HAHAHA -.-

How i wish Holiday already grr..
i want to be in year 2 NOW!!
year 1 so damn fu*k bored..
but then year 2 8.30am !!!

working today till 2am -.-
tired tired tired
i need 10 red bull
awww..how i wish today she got go up (:

sadden i made you sad
made you cried
didn't mean to...
didn't want to..
hope that you would still put trust me..
believe in me ...
i really don't wanna hurt you..
~>.<~ sad sad sad sad...

Time is never gonna stop and wait
for time wait for no one.
However what i can do is to stop hurting you
what has pass is already the past
i cared for you,
maybe just that im bad at expressing myself
i want do all my best to make you happy
don't wanna see you sad

but i hope we can like
see each others flaws
i wanna see your everything
your good
your bad
your everything..
attitude that you have ..
(: understand you more!!
know what i can do to make you happier!!

okay sleeping time..
ILOVE YOU

It's not the last farewell ♥

Thursday, November 13, 2008

@ 4:21 AM

12/11 went amk with loves, ahem and ahem zZzzzz =.=
LOL dots ate subway club healthy eh?
then went nebo play carrom, then jenga then bla..
ate there too damn i was so full like **** =.=
went to watch high school musical 3
was quite boring yet nice (cause i liked the songs)
went back to 925 for Loves prawn noodle
and my prawn SOUP! met alethia there...
oh yah im unhappy bout one thing...
the world revolves and changes..grr
and im so not happy bout it.

i wonders...
but i'm fine (:

well...
i don't know myself well seriously
im weird..
maybe im not
im so tired...
i needed more money
i don't like people who act like a pro and say like a pro..
i don't know lah..

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 2:04 AM

02/11 yeaaa... i miss you
soOooo tired today had science
weeet yang han today i think comfirm A's student -.-
after school cab to cwp then met loves at the 4th door.
walk here and there
yawms... im so tired

It's not the last farewell ♥

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

@ 12:29 PM

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 12:07 PM

opps i did it again =.=
im don't what to say,
im bad at words
sigh..

i had so many injuries suddenly
1. my right hand
2. my left wrist isn't healed yet
3. my right knee
4. my right eye there
5. my left toe

=.= one day i just need to be send to the hospital to get examine all

Recently what have i done?
Went Fioan house play majong
damn im super noob hahahaha

went kbox open one chivas (WOW SO EX)

went to have steam boat at kim jio's house HAHAHHA damn fun

lemme think ..

OH ya recently leanne birthday
went drinking session with them but i did drank much that day

WEN HUI BIRTHDAY 09/11 I REMEMBER!!
but message her no reply hahah SAW her yesterday on the way home
lucky exchange number

Monday went shopping with LOVES
hahaha she spend so so so MUCH!!
choose a top for her WEEET and she wore it yesterday (:
so KAWAII!!

okay now my entertainment time
so long never entertain myself

being brought up single handed by my dad alone
i was left alone almost all the time
i knew that once when i grow up i have to be very independent
even how much i want to rely on one,
i know i can't i don't have anyone really to rely on.
Lucky i have wonderful friends

Grew up in a family that teaches me
(don't trust people too much even best friend)
but i always do trust people too easily
sigh..when then do i know if someone is telling the truth?

LOVES..

It's not the last farewell ♥

Friday, November 7, 2008

@ 10:03 AM

Went ball-ing with al, kzai, and LOVES
hahahaa wow saw fioan and my beloved junior shudao
so long never see her (she become a bit more flesh already)
im so tired suddenly grr.. -.-
Having Computering math now damn.
don't know bout what damn stuff i really don't know how to do and im kinda blank

morning train to school with LOVES
like so ... don't bear to leave like that (:

im stress, sometimes stress to the damn point that i want go do some illegal stuff
to earn lots of money...
money is just stressing me too much !!!

Human nature is so selfish at times.
how can we really understand one?
the answer is definately not 100%
nobody would know whom he or she really is...
even you yourself wouldn't know for sure...
we're of scare of being the bad guy
usually we pushes the blame to one another
but is this really one and another wants?

aiyo im missing you!!
loving you. (:

It's not the last farewell ♥

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

@ 2:45 AM

~~YEA.. so happy~~

~~after school went queensway met with LOVES and ky~~

~~bought new tongue stud~~

~~ate curry chicken rice~~

~~damn i today ate hell lot sia~~

~~=.= hahahaa walked around queensway shopping center~~

~~then went anchor point (weee my virgin time at there)~~

~~hahhaha!! then met alethia..~~

~~then cab to Isetan at orchard to accompany them buy shi cai prezzie =.=~~

~~then went back actually wanted to go khatib mac..~~

~~half way through in bus, alethia remember that EH..11pm already ehh khatib mac close already today not weekend eh...=.=~~

~~so ended we rounds back to yishun~~

~~went 925 ate dim sum, LOVES ate prawn noodle and alethia ate dim sum~~

~~was fun.. they were like crapping all the way~~

~~HAHHAHA..~~

~~had lots of fun and laughter today..~~

~~make me cough more only~~

~~send LOVES home...eh you very naughty today HAHAHHA!! (:~~

~~Its been so long since i have become a green eyed monster.~~

~~It's a good thing or bad?~~

~~I miss you (:~~

~~I love you (:~~

It's not the last farewell ♥

@ 2:40 AM

你的绘画凌乱着. 　　
在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽.
甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐.
伴你断断续续唱着歌.
假装没事了.
时间过了走了.
爱情面临选择.
你冷了倦了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.
怎麽了.
你累了.说好的.
幸福呐　　我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了　　
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.你在不舍　　
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.我都还记得
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐
你的绘画凌乱着. 　　在这个时刻.
我想起喷泉旁的白鸽. 　　甜蜜散乱了.
情绪莫名的拉扯.
我还爱你呐. 　　
伴你断断续续唱着歌. 　　
假装没事了.
时间过了走了. 　　
爱情面临选择. 　　
你冷了却了我哭了.
一开始的不快乐.
你用卡片拭写着.
有些爱只给到这真的懂了.
怎麽了.
你累了.说好的.幸福呐　　
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦远了　　
开心与不开心.一一叙说着.
你在不舍　　
那些爱过的感觉都太深刻.
我都还记得
你不等了.
说好的.幸福呐　　
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐
怎麽了. 你累了.说好的.幸福呐. 　　
我懂了.不说了.爱淡了.梦淹了. 　　我都还记得.
你不等了.说好的.幸福呐　　
我错了.泪干了.放手了后悔了
只是回忆的音乐盒还旋转着.要怎么停呐 !

It's not the last farewell ♥