♥ Memories are meant to fade for us to move on

Tuesday, November 25, 2008

@ 4:48 AM

~~Anyone know what i'm feeling now?~~

~~How i hope so...~~

~~I can let go everything~~

~~ANYTHING..~~

~~Free myself for just a moment~~

~~ain saying that i'm what aiya don't know lah~~

~~Fucked up..~~

~~Define Val:~~

~~Happy-go-lucky~~

~~Hot tempered~~

~~Dominative~~

~~Straight yet not so straight forward~~

~~Like to Lame and joke~~

~~Know how to be serious when needed~~

~~Like to hide my own feeling~~

~~Hate to show that i'm weak~~

~~Hate people to misunderstand me~~

~~hate people don't trust me~~

~~hate people make assumptions~~

~~predict what will happen when it hasn't~~

~~maybe i wasn't a good person~~

~~yes i'm not~~

~~i have super duper ultra bad temper~~

~~you can't shout at me~~

~~cause i'll pay you double or triple if you do that~~

~~you can't hurt me cause i'll find ways to hurt you like that too~~

~~true?~~

~~is that me?~~

~~see it for yourself~~

~~i hadn't been in ultra good mood these few days~~

~~times when i laugh~~

~~are times when i'm working~~

~~unintentionally being entertain by customers~~

~~i think a lot~~

~~seriously what have become of me~~

~~or because i have other side which is good and can tolerate~~

~~i can if i want~~

~~but i will collect and let go once~~

~~that's me~~

~~i will dig up the past~~

~~that's when the worst part came in~~

~~i love to have trust~~

~~at least i know i'm being trusted and thus i won't do it~~

~~i'm fucking stubborn~~

~~the more people don't want~~

~~the more i want~~

~~the more people hate it~~

~~the more i want to love it~~

~~i like to try new things~~

~~yet i feared of addiction~~

~~i want let go..~~

~~free myself~~

~~i don't wanna drink and die~~

~~i don't want smoke and die~~

~~i just want to feel nothing~~

~~and feel high~~

~~feel ultimately me~~

~~shout~~

~~scold~~

~~whatever fuck shit avalible~~

~~i don't know what i want~~

~~but somehow i know what i want~~

~~if i want means i want~~

~~if i don't want means i don't want~~

~~i can be force~~

~~to do things i don't want~~

~~i can..~~

~~the most i will remember this~~

~~but yet at the same time i am soft hearted~~

~~and also i tend to forget things easily~~

~~somehow i don't feel like going school~~

~~UT what is it?~~

~~i want go on holiday~~

~~i need a fucked up holiday~~

~~maybe i need earn money first~~

~~I love to make friends rather then enemies~~

~~even is ex i would like to force them to be my friend~~

~~expect those that betrayed me and i really hate them~~

~~i want...~~

~~cause i feel it's okay~~

~~be friends only~~

~~why not~~

~~sigh..~~

~~i don't know what to do or say~~

~~currently i fall in love with the song 滾~~

~~nice song to play~~

~~nice song to sing~~

~~damn damn damn fucked up..~~

~~im sad~~

~~yet im happy~~

~~yet i don't know~~

~~i'm just confuse~~

~~i hate this mixture of lots of feeling~~

~~it just sucks~~

~~why i can..~~

~~why~~

~~those of question and queries~~

~~i have my own set of insecurites~~

~~but i just couldn't show~~

~~i simply don't know how to react in a nice way~~

~~i don't know how to say out~~

~~i know i would be the bad guy~~

~~i don't want~~

~~i rather bear it all without anything~~

~~i rather bear it all..~~

~~all myself~~

It's not the last farewell ♥