♥ Memories are meant to fade for us to move on

Sunday, November 23, 2008

@ 5:07 PM

~~I'm still me maybe just a little different from how i'm last time?~~

~~I'm more emotional now but somehow i don't show much to people except people.~~

~~It's normal how the people whom understand me don't understand me now.~~

~~cause i'm contradicting myself...~~

~~I don't understand myself much anymore.~~

~~But i feel that i have a good temper now.~~

~~People whom felt i'm dumb is cause,~~

~~they feel i'm not myself at least i'm not that bloody tempered.~~

~~I feel it~~

~~I know what's happening to me~~

~~I don't say~~

~~doesn't meant that i'm stupid nor i don't feel~~

~~doesn't meant that i don't care~~

~~Actually not only have i change~~

~~i saw a drastic change in people~~

~~But whom am i to judge for i'm not the judge nor the jury~~

~~I felt bothered~~

~~I felt pain~~

~~I felt almost anything that isn't optimistic~~

~~when i'm alone~~

~~(p.s no one knew what happened)~~

~~but i preferred to be left alone~~

~~cause i know if someone whom is there whom understand me~~

~~whom console me~~

~~whom...~~

~~whom..~~

~~i will break~~

~~i will break down~~

~~into zillion pieces~~

~~I know im not me myself and i~~

~~Maybe i like or i loved myself now~~

~~at least i'm more tamed~~

~~I'm tired of getting tired of getting angry~~

~~people think i really so like being angry~~

~~I'm tired of getting misunderstand and always have to explain this and that~~

~~I hate it actually~~

~~being misunderstand really can make me cry~~

~~then i have use my precious time to explain things which are not the way it is.~~

~~I rather bare all the burden...~~

~~I'm so not feeling well..~~

~~headache..~~

~~swollen eyes~~

~~nothing which is good~~

~~People whom are on the male side~~

~~do they always have to be the one acting strong~~

~~when they themselves sometimes want to let go and relax?~~

~~To cry when they needed to~~

~~To act like one piece of strong shit when they are actually scare~~

~~Ya this is at least for what i think so..~~

~~Have to...~~

~~or else being labelled as weak~~

~~useless~~

~~sucks...~~

~~I can't say much~~

~~but at least for now this is what i feel~~

~~despite all this..~~

~~i still have lots of negative stuff to say~~

~~but till then i shall just keep quiet and go sleep~~

~~For the sake of my head~~

~~my eyes~~

~~...GOOD NIGHT!~~

It's not the last farewell ♥