Time heals all wounds
I hope that the time that past by
wouldn't be wasted or lost
I'm currently at krislan

Playing L4D
I ain heartless
even if i do there is for a purpose
I really wanted life to be like this now
carefree

Watch "The little fairy"
learnt more things there

I don't LOVE YOU = I Love you
Love until to the extend that you don't love

If you love someone
i always believe that we don't have to be together
i always believe like that
yeah people would say that i selfish
what about me
when i really love that person that time
who was there to be there for me
who was there when i shed count-less of tears
at least i would be there may it be angry or sad
maybe not physically
but mentally i'm there
i'm always there
just a message
just a phone call
you can easily reach me

So i will strongly believe what i always believe in
love doesn't have to show
love doesn't have to be together
i don't mind being selfish
i don't mind how people see me
i don't mind being hate
This is me and just me

Through those years i have learnt to love myself
i can't stop people from following my footsteps
neither i will stop them now
maybe through experience they will then learnt the real experience themselves
go through the pain that i have gone through
i have gone through worst pain people have

maybe not the worst that happened in some other people life
i'm fountunate
i'm really
so i wouldn't let this come to an end

my blog used to be those..
damn i want to end my fucking life
i want end it all
how shall i end it
eat panadols?
cut?
jump?
tried all that
expect that when i tried to jump people stopped me

but who knows what happened when i was caught
hand full of wounds
all bleeding
who was there to clean
i had to withstand the pain on my own
who was there to visit me in the hospital?

who?
who was there when i use the damn needle to prick open the damn wound
who was there when i was in my room having despression
crying all day and all night long
nobody
nobody was there
even that time my girlfriend wasn't even there

why because i just simply need no one
i believe i'm strong to overcome every damn thing on my own
no matter how pain how hurts
i wouldn't cry
cry is just showing that i'm weak
i don't mind being call an "act"
i just don't want them to see i shed tears..

Someone said this to me
Love is not everything...

yeah it isn't damn
fuck..
i fuck wouldn't go back to the past
I WOULDN'T
but who knows..