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Friday, April 3, 2009

@ 3:46 PM

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pengz is too immune to see couples together happily
but pengz can't immune to sickness and pains

pengz is having 1 meals lately
and..another in the morning before pengz went to sleep in the morning
(ps. provided there are food that pengz fancy at home)
or else it would be 2 egg..WHITE (:

pengz is craving for steamboat for a long time
with a spicy soup base of tom yum.. YUMMY

pengz do not know living have got any meaning for pengz not
but pengz is contended to have at least good friends around that have not forgotten
bout pengz's attributes and good points

pengz detest to show pengz bad points
pengz is changing
but is trying so hard
pengz will be sad after scolding people
and pengz doesn't want to cause pengz do not want to hurt people
but sometimes
people just come their way and scold pengz
and pengz will get very angry
but fear not pengz is trying hard to change
and lastly pengz detest scolding vulgarities
but pengz always do that
so pengz is also trying hard to change

pengz do not know should pengz envy couples
but pengz just do not envy them a little at all
maybe pengz lost all interest
pengz really do not know what to do anymore
sometimes pengz is so stress

pengz felt that writting ramdom stuff cures
but not for long
pengz is not emo
and do not like to be label that way
(ps, maybe in the past)

PENGZ REALLY HATES PEOPLE THAT RAKE UP PENGZ PAST
PENGZ WILL NOT TOLERATE THIS
MAY IT BE 14 YEAR OLD THAT INCIDENT
MAY IT BE 16 YEAR OLD THAT INCIDENT
WHATEVER IT IS,
PENGZ TRUST PEOPLE THAT THEY WOULDN'T USE THAT TO HURT PENGZ
BUT GUESS, PENGZ IS WRONG BOUT SOME PEOPLE THAT USES PENGZ PAST
USES PENGZ PAST TO KILL PENGZ
PENGZ IS WEAK AGAINST PENGZ PAST
THOUGH IT HAS PAST LONG
WHENEVER PEOPLE RAKE UP
PENGZ JUST TREAT IT'S THE PAST
BUT INSIDE
IT'S KILLING
IT HURTS
BECAUSE PEOPLE SEE PENGZ JUST LIKE THAT IF THEY RAKE UP THE PAST
SO WHAT
PEOPLE JUST DO NOT BELIEVE IT IS THE PAST
AND PENGZ DO NOT WISH TO SHARE WITH ANYONE, ANYMORE
PENGZ SHARE BECAUSE THEY WANT PEOPLE TO KNOW
AND ACCEPT PENGZ TRUTHFULLY
KNOWING IT'S A WEAKNESS
BUT PENGZ STILL DO SO
WHY..
BECAUSE PENGZ TRUST..
BUT PEOPLE BREAK THOSE LITTLE TRUST THAT CANNOT BE SEEN

WHAT REALLY MEANT TO PENGZ IS THOSE TRUST
PENGZ BELIEVES THAT WHITE LIE IS OKAY

It's not the last farewell ♥