FUCK LAH!!

Be dead and to be rise from the dead.

I shout, i angry people thought i hack
WILL THEY UNDERSTAND HOW I FEEL?

Haven't i been nice to people w/o asking what in return
FUCK!

Why no one understand me
No one will i guess

Why do friends become stranger

I guess what a girl wants
is someone whom they can receive love (真心)

Mom just like other people do not believe me
Dad just believe that someone keep saying me
whom can i get parental love from?
What fuck happy family
I don't even feel i have a fucking family
At least last time i thought i still have a mom
but whom we don't contact
EVERYONE abandon me (:

Haha.. daddy, mummy i'm so happy you all abandon me
Cause i learn how to be stronger w/o you two (:
I have no family at ALL
You 2 made me realise i don't need love to grow
I don't need love to survive!
Yes, i don't
That's why i do want any people in my life
Out of so many people
who are the REALLY ones that will be there?

Count .. (:

busy busy busy
pengz is so busy ever since in year 2
and nowadays having headache
and can't wake up
due to PHONE SPOIL ):
im so stress up bout money issues
sigh*

NUM didn't called again
it's okay then Carl's jr or kinokuniya maybe (:

Time flies, unknowingly i'm 19 turning 20 pretty soon (not very LOL)
Guess i'm falling in love with DNA (Digital media art)
hahaha but heard that problem 5 quite difficult?
pengz it is about editing sound...
didn't went training today, guess what's my real reason?
PENGZ!!
late for school, pack my shoe ready to go out
took cab, reach school, sit down ... (OH GOD! I FORGOT BRING MY SHOE)
=.= how dumb of me

after school, had UT i think i did okay hahah..
mostly about photoshop stuff (: luckily i played with it all the time
(maybe due to pretty faci made me study hard HAHAH joking)

After UT asked Yang han where is he, then he said esplanade cafe,
DAMN!! i though TRCC is esplanade and walked all the way there grr..
i went artbite instead grr.. =.=
waited for christine
before that he called kinokuniya

(should i worked there?)

Me, Yh and christine went to causeway point food court eat
crap a lot, think im getting more and more retard PENGZ!!
(oh, god)

went Courts hahah crap there too then smoke then bus-ed home
slept in bus ZZzzz damn tired

supposed to do RJ but then i don't know how to do
thus side track a while HAHHAHA

OH YAH!! I just realise i have this fun classmate ERIKA SHIMADA
HAHAHHA.. she's a japanese
guess what i asked her?
"what is your japanese element in you"
LOL then she keep thinking that i was asking about the God sculpture !! HAHAH
damn funny disturbing her whole day
"JAPANESE!!"

oh well..
i learnt something as well
NAOMI = IMOAN (spell from the other side)
Hhahahaa..!!
till then..
RJ TIME!!

stress ah, how to get 2077 sia =/
sadden
i have no idea what to do for tdoay's module..
video taken thanks to christine ahh..
hahaha.. i looked like a fool PENGZ!!

I need money !!
anyone wanna lend me money
bought bike with down payment
just need to pay up the rest by next month
cause no one wants to be my gurantor!

This is getting so sucks
and i'm selling away my laptop sigh
money money money
makes me crazy

Why is everyone dwell into pitifulness
LOL i felt that people are weak against sadness, weakness and pitifulness
People tend to get a shoulder and fell in love oh god that is S.O C.O.M.M.O.N! pengz HAHHA
I've seen so many of these happened.

Anyway i so scare i kana con ):
sigh*
money money...
people changes really fast
one day changes once (:
hahaha wow that's scary

me too, im like eating bombs daily HAAHAA..
soon i will get heart-attack !!
hahaha..due to so much stress and anger inside me ):
LOL!!

Just kidding (:
awaiting for my bike ..
CBR 150 black...

I'm finding job
At first i thought i detest losing friends
but then i realise it isn't bad to lose a bytch (:
what is the point?

Just finish lesson
finding job later i think
Yatie, where are you?!

I need more money!

I found someone whom is very mature in the way she thinks
listen to what she says made me feel,
OH this is what it really should be...
one day you will always be only my memory

You have to accept new people in order to forget someone
It may take long, but take it slow
LOL there are more but forget.. =.=

go to school ... sian
awww my whole body still ache-ing XD

I thought i saw someone, or was it just my imagination XD hahahaa..

I'm like so.... sigh
bike bike bike soon!!

I just .. nth
i kept nth to anyone
LOL
believe?
yeah.. maybe i should have one more blog..

UP COMING SOON...
(i think.. LOL)

Went for Cue sport talk, heard that they intaking 40 plus people for that IG
hahaa.. pengz those whom are selected are to go to SP!
which was like SIAN BY HALF..
have to travel to so far for that IG,
i must well go die...
but still pondering should i go on saturday for that trial not
HAHAHA..
SP leh..
like so erm... SIAN!!

Tomorrow going to basketball trail wish me luck...
so wish to go play basketball now loh!!
nobody accompany me go ):

PENGZ!!

Im soooOOooOoooo HOT!!

Busy busy since i got into year 2 been so busy
not like year 1 can always watch video play games blaa bla bla
Understand the feeling of not going to smoke
cause time is rushing
is like 12 break 1.45 presents rather then the usual
plus 12 break, plus if i eat and smoke nearly more then half and hour gone
which is like OH GOD!
pengz

Yesterday wanted to collect my pay
but they say it's not out yet damn
whatever =/

bloody phone got problem
people send message cannot it doesn't show
must enter into inbox to check then would know
like it do not even have the message prompt thing
sigh.

i have so many things to get
i know what bike i gotta buy already ahaha..
pricing wise also not bad

but what i really need now
is a stable job

HAHHAA.. sia la accompany yang han and christine joined cue club in short also known as pool club and basketball interest group.
HAHAHA.. going for briefing later (:
ciao!!

yawns guess today i'm going to screw up for the art critic
and sometimes i just hate STA people =.=
so bastard, bombard lots of questions!

Luckily not me
but sometimes really is my group
sigh
i need more money
yet i do not want to wait,
if pay by hired purchase i would need a gurantor and plus interest ):
sad but i would need more money = more time
means i would have MORE CHANCE to spend my money away
that's why i wanna get my bike fast and furious ):
sigh

i need a job
i want my PAY

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so far i have all the above EXCEPT high fever and muscle pains
but i'm feeling discomfort all over and ultra tired ):

there is no cure for H1N1 ):

OH YAH.. at 3th r/s i also learnt about my character...
I wanna hold back yet i also want to let go .. END UP
i choose to Let go no matter how bad how sad i am

Fuck people...
sometimes i realise when people have this perspection for something they nvr change
i realise...
sigh..

what is call maturity
at which stage is mature
do the older we get, meant that we're mature

people perspection
fuck, im so fucking angry/sad
i don't know

sometimes things i wanna say to people
things i hide from people
so what am i doing?

Say = die
don't say also die
so is to say or don't say

sometimes i wish i was gay LOL
at least that ass hole (ahem ahem)
lead a very LUXORIOUS and fun life
unlike les ba ):

females tend to be more sensitive
or was this my point of view?

1st relationship i learn NOT TO BE PAISEH TO GF!! LOL
2nd relationship i learn not to break promise cause that's why the case ):
3rd relationship i learn more bout a female, be more sensitive to them cause they want attention and love?
4th relationship i learn ehh.. too short to learn
5th relationship people can cheat on you, this has too much to learn
i know more about females, people, and not to be soft hearted
6th relationship people can NEVER change perspective on people, thus make the scenario very stress. Behind every words, there are hidden meaning and words that are never spoken and lies in the middle. LOL

I'm tired
tired of relationships
cause i can't stand people perspection that this guy is bad then bad all the way
stutbbornness bring you no where
tired of quarrel
i enjoy life now
LOL
always see chio bus! LOL
but not so enjoy also
cause i'm so broke ):

since sec 2 i have been wanted to have PEACE of life
but seems that all this can't happen
we grow up we feel more and more stress
part and parcel of life
working is worse
people are like wearing mask
if you put your real person wholeheartedly
you will end up being betray
backstab
people may be smiling to you
happily
BUT at the end of the day who knows that those smiles may be fake?

what i want
i'm confuse
i'm sad
i don't know

actually i have more to blog other then these...
my real intention to blog wasn't all this too
funny is it?
but i just don't wish to say

no point
yea angry is angry
sad is sad..
but you will still see me smiling OUTSIDE

can i throw away 1 of my bdae prezzie? LOL