It's holiday
since then i have been always drinking i guess
Pengz Zouk on wed (:
I can get in!!

Aww..

Went with Yang han, Vic, Kintoh, Sihui and 2 others girl one is nic and another preteeyeah girl i forget the name =X

Partying!!
Took lots of photo by their camera
hahah i went to tag it myself in facebook
LOOK SO RETART!! Everyone in the photo!
damn hilarious!

Oh yah went to PRITPAL pub it's a hinda pub
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went TCC to interview with shu zhen too (:
we got in my orientation on 3rd
just after chalet
aww
hope i can get to work soon
hopefully at bugis!! haha joke!

Went TCC eat (:
Find AL (Ailin)!!
lousy service =X
joke LOL!!

didn't eat a lot but ann and TSY did
aww bill was 70+
haha i drank my fav caramal azuki frapp
awww heaven!


PLAY!!
Double O find ele
dranks shots and shots of shots
with loads of peeps

saw loads and loads of peeps at PLAY!
seriously i dance like gay aww..

Sat
Another gayish nite
before that went to return helmet with TSY
blaa..
went wikie edge (Which is where her sch Kaplan City campus is)
so ate Hor fan she ate chicken rice
aww so NOT NICE!

Then saw a beancurd store
wondering if is the one that ron says
so we tried the 2 stories high beancurd eatery!

Yikes so not nice again!
haha we saw 1 bung that resemblence AL again! (alethia i mean)

Then smoke and wait for her gay friend to come (Bx)
aww ron is comin!
haha and we know after we called him to ask if that's the beancurd store he's talking about

Went to fetch ron
grr that ass
I say meet at PS bus stop cause cant stop
then on the way he called while im on road and didn't put ear piece HA!
then bluff me say at cine whereby he mix up cine and THE CATHAY!
hahaha!! so i go rounds to tann myself =X

Then went back to wikie edge to find TSY
then we find kinda bored aft getting bubble tea hahah RON's TREAT! (:
aww so nice !!

Ya, we went to TSY class to find her
then kinda bored
GUESS WHAT WE DID!!

DAMN WE IMITATE BIG BANG LIES MTV WHILE OUTSIDE HER CLASS!!
hahahah..
LAME!!!
damn funneh!

Yeah psycho ron don't go work go TSY bbq (:
hahaha fun!

At the BBQ
SO LONG NEVER MET UP WITH THEM!
hahahhaa so fun to drink together again!

Took loads of photos
Yona came too
that assholical ass
we fight a lot! =X

TSY MERLION!
so fast at least i .. at the back then ahem*

So how i drunk
actually im okay till i drank KY pass me de Vodka neat with BEER!
damn
the kick damn slow didn't realise
when i did i already knock out..

hahahah Merlion till don't know what time alone
HAHAHH!! cause i was squating at some pillar behind so they didn't knew till behind
after Merlion i slept till MORNING!
GOD!!
hahaha.. spinning heads
AND SAW EVERYONE's gone!!
awww..

Left bdae girl, ann, black and Yk who is sleeping
hahaha..oh yah and 2 guy that ride bike from EUNOS!
GOD!! Power to the max

OH YAH i remember i hug kzai
aww WHY YOU SO LATE COME KZAI!!
hahaha no choice she have to work (:
HAD LOADS OF FUN THOUGH...

so end of story....



I'm fucking Buay song!
Like what the fuck small roles act one big
damnit i know who the fuck you are
i will chop you into thousand pieces knn
I'm still angry!
CCB!

Biggest weakness - Pride

You think highly of yourself. You are very opinionated and often think your opinion is the best one. You love to debate and you can generally keep your cool, but... sometimes you get pretty heated when people don't understand your side. You love passionately and hurt deeply, but you rarely show it. Physical affection is hard for you, although sometimes you long for it. You've built up so many walls you don't know how to get them down. Underneath of it all you know your weaknesses, but you are afraid to let the world see. You are a perfectionist to an extreme degree and you don't do anything unless you do it right. You are loyal, but only if you choose to be. .

What am i hiding from myself - Love

You may love someone with all your heart but don't want to admit it to someone, so you hide it. You feel empty and longing but can't see why, even if the res...t of the world can. Love isn't easy to give but you make it impossible by hiding it from yourself..

Both are so true am i right to say?
Well no one actually sees it, or they does but i deny
True that love isn't easy to give but i make it impossible
That i do not love that someone true or false?

I don't want to admit it to someone
because i do not want to be in love,
funny isn't it?
though i long to
though i want to
i make it a NO NO thing hahahah!!

Love = hurt

I used to thought i could be a good gf
but i think and think about it again
no, i don't think i can give people security
TRUE?!
I guess even friends said that
Hahaha.. for me to know for you to find out

What past is past,
i shall look forward to my next change

1st r/s bought me to a gigantic change
so does the 2nd make me feel cheated
then i change drastically
mentally towards love change

I couldn't be who i was once...

or i was

I don't know
But i will look forward
But i doubt i will step into another r/s

simply it hurts to hurt people
simply it hurts to be hurt by people
simply i felt hopeless in love
simply i don't know
hahaha

enjoy being single now
but sadden...
cus fking people keep saying i flirt
damnit
i flirt what fk shyt

tmd don't know me do not act like you know me deep down
deep down what kinda person im i know jolly well
it's up to my mask now (:

I just don't know why is there people have the ability to love
Do i have the ability to love?
No, i dare not
Sometimes i just admire your guts, your ability
I'm not blind, just that i always don't say doesn't meant i do not know

I just want to close my eyes for everything
Studying even at this time

I know myself
That's why i dare not love
I know myself
That's why i do not want to say
I know myself
That's why i do not want to show
I know myself way too much
That i know i can't love

Someone told me
If you love that someone you should tell them
They have the rights to know
Another told me
If you love that someone, you should let the person know
Because you never know if that someone loves you
if she does, aren't too you're also hurting people
Hurting the one that feels what you felt too

My past, isn't that hurting maybe as compared to people
Everyone have to go through painful past
And they face the future
What may be of the future
No one knows
That's what i always tell people
Because a flower can blossom twice

So what have i did for the past few days?

Practically i have lots of UT
went Bugis with Ron and Yh
before that i fetch Yh to book chalet (:
aww i pay first damn im so broke

Then went illuma to treat Ron bubble tea HAHAHAH
end up it's freeee (:
aww then play jubeat and the drum thingy with Yh
damn funneh (:
we saw weirdos there though

oh ya, when just reach saw al
LOL Yh say she damn dao HAHAHHA!!
ah lian!!

so continue of that day
went marina with yh, yk, ron, al, and me
to eat Pasta de Waraku
yum yum as usual
i wasted loads of food! =.=
aww

then home sweet home
msg with al
then know that she didn't cab back
then she ended up stuck at Sim Lim
then she bus-ed back to bishan
went there talk cock, sing song, play majong till 3plus?
then fetch her ass home (:
reach home 4plus
awww
hahaha i siam that road block *wink

then exam day
damn tired
keep slapping myself to be awake
smoke session with lots of peeps
hahaha
stupid Yh go pao toh i go slap myself
hahaha make me so malu
smoking session was fun
with ragu and naomi joker
telling jokes
beside kin toh that guy too
and NAREN!!
hahahhaha

bike to pump oil with Ron
then went TSY house make her audi
then makan grilled fish
too tired slept a while

send Ron to Masiling
home
then out
before that ...
...
...
reach bball court
play bball
ate with kee and more (:

home now damn tired yawn
uploading pictures

aww
why cant love turn back
al, you so xian shi!
i mean alethia

Once hurt twice shy
I already given myself the verdict
but i just don't understand
How can i let it happened twice

I find that to love someone is hard
for i can't step into any r/s
because i do not know how to love someone

therefore i chose not to love
maybe even i do love
i felt something
i would choose not to

once hurt twice shy
Horoscope analysis always seems so true

Horoscope character always resemblance one or another
in one for another way

Analytical skills to interpret how one behaves

I don't know
but i still see differences in same horoscope characters though
but mostly are the same
because the "humanity" part is how we as a "someone"
behaves fully

Love you, love you not
the verdict is given
the answer is taken
judge and jury have decided

My mind is clear
my heart is broken
just like trees that shattered leafs
is just like how my heart feels

Although *someone* told me
The person you love have the rights to know that you love her,
although i have the rights to portray out my feelings

Maybe i just don't want to
maybe i'm running away

It's isn't that i cant be straight-forward
but i will hurt people

It isn't that i do not want to say about my feelings
but i guess no one really understands me

oh girl, i cry cry
You're my all
say goodbye
(HaruHaru)

when i laugh
beneath me may be crying

(Just kidding)

I just want to be who im now
yet,
i have so many things to say
i do not know where do i start
how should i start
where should i end
how should i end

last
how should i potray myself
what is my feeling
did anyone know?
how am i feeling deep down?

Can i love you?
Pondering thoughts that flashes across the mind
Thinking
...

Have you ever wonder
Did you ever notice?

Will you ever know
Have you seen it?

Pondering thoughts...
I only wish to be that tree
that source of pillar
that held you up when you are down

or ... was it
that...
...
certain things aren't meant to be said

UT3 Finally over!! LOL pengz
YES!!
But was way too nervous that i forget my lines!
damn disappointed in myself for this
Outside while rehersal i can do it
but the actual one
suddenly like adrenline rush
my heart pump like shit!
damn fast can?!
tried to calm myself down
no use
and end up forget LINES!

I feared the distance
I feared that time made a difference
All i want is...

Just wonder why i cant express myself out

Anyway i having UT3 practical for Directing and performance soon
Wish me luck
AND
I'm so scare bout the bike stuff
I'm really scare
though i force myself not to think bout it

And something else i feared..

what if it meant to be,
what it doesn't meant to be
what if true love isn't bout loving

what if love actually?
Some say love is protecting the one,
loving the one
caring for the one
isn't this what friends can do?

But to what extend?

When someone love you way too much
becomes possessive
becomes paranoid
and tend to tied the one down

This is also love?
won't you feel suffocated?

Then is this love?
If not, then what is it?

How to differentiate between love, friends
some know, some don't know, some half half?
Should people get jealous?
Some say their partner cute when they're jealous
some say they are irritating
so what is it?

Human are full of flaws
we do this, we say this
yet we do that and did that...



when i see your smile
it makes me wonder
that smile that have shine for people
is it really smiling for me

that touch,
that kiss,
that hug

are they meant to be?

For i yearn for you
to be by my side
for i miss you every min and time

Like others
i want to give my all to you
Like others
i want to be the one for you

What can i do to be the one
that will touches your heart
that makes your heart beat for me

You cover my flaws while being understanding
you mould me into someone different
but yet the same old me

You understand my love
you knew deep down
yet you can't repay my love
I never thought of you repaying my love

but i only wish, hope and pray
that you would be happy all day
the one for you may not be me
but i know the one for me is you...

For you i will...

TO BE CONTINUE!!
Copy righted by PENGZ!

有人告诉我
如果你喜欢那个人
那么她就有权利之道
你的感受
但

我想我还是不够成熟
才达不到你的要求

我想我还不要想那么多
因为结局 是不会改变

年龄的差距
带来莫名的 距离感

是我想太多
还是因为感到非常陌生

默默的支持
默默的爱恋
不时也是一种爱
因为不爱也是一种爱的方式

awesome or funny? i saw my cousin while riding to bugis yesterday =.=
went bugis with AL (Not AL koh LOL)
too late for interview
so end up walking around

Then went to find Jas
smoke
then withdraw money
then V8 dinner
stupidity owns us
PENGZ

I ate the dory grilled fishy while she ate the chicken with bacon?

Then went to smoke @ bugis street nearby 7-11
crazy-ness owns us again
LOL bought Hoegarrden
she drank a little bit only eh
cause we both share
her face can fight with baboon ass LOL!
it's no wonder she's an ass HAHHAHA!!

Went to play Jubeat YEAH!!!
i improve!!
Then didn't repair bike again
Sat which is today then go

I WANT A JOB!!!

1130 she go meet her friend
and i went down blue star (Chong pang prata)
slack with 1 uncle, Eunice and Debra
the uncle so crap LOL! damn funneh

Suppose to be in sch now
but DNP meeting cancel again

What if don't love is also a type of love?
不爱也是一种爱

I'm awaiting for my ash grey hair (:

Yzanne say it's sad to tell yourself not to like someone when you do
LOL i think it's ok, it's not but to be optimistic!
what do i fear of?
Nothing right?

Can people don't have feelings for anyone?
Yes, why not
Why must they keep intoxicate my mind to MUST love someone

To say i like her, or her or her?
DOTS!
can't i just be friends with people?

Why can't?
What is love?
How to love someone
it's been so long since i felt that way
or have i forgotten?

Why do i feel weird?
Tell me, can i fall in love?
Can i love again?
Can i accept love again?
How does it feel to love someone yet try to suspress the feeling inside?

Simply it hurts but...It's okay it will pass
loving someone secretly is also love (:

Basically at the Airport is always so emotional PENGZ just joking
Just that i have ideas of what to write at the airport when sending ann off =.=

so here it goes,

感情是個過程
為何我好像往往
走向絕句那一方
你對我的誓言
帶給我好大的距離感

我的心于如
白雪在夏天裡
溶化那一般

你我為何會開始
為何會畫上那句點...

So basically till here...
Yesterday went Bugis Chapter 2 cut hair
bought hair colour
Ailin gave a surprise attack!!
aww .. (:

Slack, play, chat blaaa...
then went home bleach hair
aww
still have to wait for 1 week for my actual colour that i want
I gonna get some hair care

AWW MY POLICE FINE
I DAMN SCARE
THE DEADLINE IS ON NATIONAL DAY =(

Finally!! I bought a New MGP helmet
actually wanted to buy that full face with shades
120 bucks! ): awww

I need a job (:
Went to meet that assholic ..." AMY~ is currently not available" LOL!

Lots of finally (:
Saw friends that i miss (:
kzai, jayven and ky O.o
Yt already saw her in school ON THE SAME DAY!!

LOL left that ultra busy ALETHIA
that do not CONTACT ME
or she does but im sick last week ):

okay~ back later now break !! i miss YOU !!! =X

when ever i talked about basketball
talked about the past
i would reminisces it

nostalgic moments in my life
Would put it in the past and move on

Now just play as leisure
it can only be a hobby
never a dream

Forbidden Love
I wanna watch Milk
some R21 Homosexual show
which my facilitator mention ):

Sucks!!
Why am i not 21
Why Older woman seems more attractive
awww

Audition character become shuai already (:
It is like Finally?!

终于，你还是离开了我
不会再回来了吗
是时候该离开了吗

我开始坏念着当时那种感受
冲没想过你有一天会离我而去，
我 。。。真的爱过你那么多
冲不要求些什么回报
只希望能够的默默爱着你

这样我就瞒住了
等。。。还是等

会有那么一天我会等到你吗?
再见我的爱