I disappoint people i guess
im not what people think im,
sigh so sad to let people think im a chiongster
think my sm think im too
ha!

Forget it
i know im not then im not

i just can't reject
maybe i will start to reject going to club
BUT

yt bdae im going
and tomorrow everyone is going
sigh

Fuck!
i hate to break promises

im not yet asleep
aft work talked to my sm
asked her if yt can interview tmr (:
yeah can!

before 4 (:
we're going early! 3.30 meet at bugis hahah!

when i know bout it
i so reject why didn't i went
things stop
sigh
i know i can never get my life
i hate my life
i know, i knew it!
im heartless
i gonna be damnit!

To that someone!
I have my freedom
and helmet is MINE!
I KNEW IT THAT'S WHY I DO NOT WANT TO FETCH YOU HOME!

I knew you would wanna follow me!
police came again you damn happy?!
i don't wanna talked to you
maybe not anymore!
i have just enough of you
HAVE YOU MESSED UP MY LIFE WELL ENOUGH?!
Happy?!
damn got the cheek to knock at my house door
don't wanna return helmet!

WHEN THEN CAN I GET MY HAPPINESS?!
WHEN IS MY F.FREEDOM?!

Entertainment time

once i lost my happiness
i lost something important to me

i thought people could tolerate but
i guess im selfish
to not end it clean

am i just too good?

I'm childish yes i think im
if only i could be heartless
i don't want hurt people become childish!

because of this i lost!
utterly lost
when i lose it i cry

too late people say
even people whom im close
nothing can be gained back

TOO LATE IS THE SENTENCE THEY USE!
am i ?
It's fucking too late
things turn out to be the same!
FUCK FUCK FUCK!

Now im trying my best to gain trust and change people's opinion on me!

im not what YOU PEOPLE THINK!
im not a chiong-ster
im not a flirt!
im not....people can't you see?
i just always treat everyone good

may it be direct or indirect
i find no point hurt one
i rather take the pain
if only loving me isn't hard
i knew tears fall in your eyes
i know it cause hurt and pain

those sentences
those words really
hurt me utterly

im sorry
but i love you

Please takkare of yourself
is all i wanna say
i have more
yet i find it no point
actions speak louder then words

im sucha failure

all i wanna sigh
nothing
im sucha disappointment eh?
(:

guess i will lose it again (:

guess...

maybe not guess
im sucha FUCKING FAILURE i know im

aww
it hurts

im not childish
but,

people see it as im

guess
i will be..
in their eyes
always like that

F. THAT SOMEONE WHO RUIN MY F.LIFE!