Wet wet wet!
It started raining after work
as i looked up into the skies
different thought flashes across my mind
wondering if the rain is tearing in place of me

endless droplets that falls
like the tears i longing to tear
from the hurt inside me unconstraintly held

i wonder if every droplets that fall
does those tiny water molecules also have feelings of hurt
does it hurt to hit the road?
i wonder...

i tried to omit every single feeling i have
Take away my soul,
take away my heart
love is a game that has a price to pay
the more love you have given the harder you will fall
the higher price you would have to pay

sigh
think im having flu again
sick...
i can't afford to fall sick
i have to be strong
PENGZ!!

pengz can do it no matter what crisis i fall
i have pass so many test in life
each and every obstacles in life
makes me grow
mould me to who im now

i have to grow
somehow sometimes the way i talk seems i have matured
mature till kinda scary
of how much i have grown to understand
only people that really sit down and listen
would get the beneficial to know who and how i really think and grow

maybe someone knows
and im glad already

detested to be said who doesn't?
don't play mind games with me for i understand yet i won't have actions done
all i want is someone true
true to the heart
tell me
i need to know
where and how can i improve
for my heart isn't strong to witstand all these alone

when i don't say doesn't mean i don't think
i know
yet i don't show

im sick..

Shin last day...
aww ):
more and more peeps are going ~>.<~
im so god damn bored
lucky me yesterday wasn't outdoor
if yesterday outdoor

GOD i'll be hella of damn sian!

Got my pay
and returned the money
relieve that i relief one of my burden (:

Later going to study before that getting materials
aww

I want do more photoshoots
i need a DSLR and Mac book pro ):

Love taking pictures,
but people say not for a career
maybe i should find a freelance (:
should jia extra you to find someone to teach me
aww
i just have so much dreams to fulfil
life with so much goals
sometimes just stress me up like fuck (:
nevertheless i should keep buck up
For my dream..

Photos i like...

sigh talk about sad stuff
asked for mac book pro 15"
$3688
If installment 4 years per month $171
BUT end of 4 years i would have already pay 8k!
do you think im a fuck dumb?
sigh!!

sad sigh,
i cannot take it already luh
very sleepy ):

Dot my previous post not post by me duh!
pengz
im so tired that i slept in school sofa and was woke up by my faci
LOL!
dot ultra tired-ness sigh
im so dead and dying hahhaa

Portfolio should start soon!
now in class
was busy today doing lame stuff in school
full of laughter!! (:

i think cindy keong man ling is a nice girl and the prettiest girl ever.

stomach flu...
sigh...
fucked up life
god damnit...
i can't find REPLACEMENT!! CCB!
HOW?!?!

6.30pm got thing till 8.30pm DIE ALSO MUST GO ???
HOW?!?!?!?!?!?!
AIYAHHHHHHH
GOD
i must be responsible for schedule
BUT HOR!!
AIYAH!!

FUCKKKKKK dilemma
school?
work?
school?
work?
...
....
.....
......
.....
....
...
..
.
school bah ):

I'll never let anyone looked down,
This is my ever going spirit!
Study work study
I'm gonna die of tiredness someday ):

Finally i decided on the web page to start
finally ideas flowing but how to execute it would be another headache ):

love comes love goes so fast like a blink of light
i can't predict anything same goes for the future
maybe now i don't love doesn't mean i won't

things left behind shall let it pass
i know way lots of things
and i'm gonna break down soon

money issue big problem
damn, i hate people say i use them
hate it
i want it i will do it!
god damn people
please if you don't know me stop judging me
from an outsider view you may not know what left unspoken

thoughts and everything
i'm just sick and tired
of everything

To love..hurts to be love..hurts too
to fall in love when someone do not love you already you or do not at all hurts
so what doesn't hurt?

someone told me never give up someone you love
i think sometimes letting go is a chance to let you grow

Love is just another part and parcel of life
because,
someone once wrote on my foolscap paper
love is not everything
true...
yet humans are just so emotional
we have the emotions
we know who care and love us
and touched by the love
YET
we can choose to suppress everything down

whatever im tired
zZzz sigh

Lots of thoughts, it's just im just too cramp with my thoughts
Sigh life is just so ... sucky when it's like that
i don't usually speak out in my blog directly of what i feel,
sometimes i don't know lah!

Vexed all the time
money issue is the big issue
it kills and im suffocating with money!
damnit
why aren't i born rich?

But maybe if im,
my life would be different
i won't learn to be what im now

sigh...

It's hurts a lot...

sometimes i think my life is utterly messed up
how do i clean up the mess
what...
what is the key thing to be more clever ?
i need a more colourful life
but seems partial memories are fading...

i hope i always tell people bout my life in hope one day i can ask them back what's my life in the past...
vex..ultimate vex-ness

dear PB LOL!!
hope you have fun during the celebration ytd (:

I love this shot! Taken by me =X

Currently having low blood feeling damn sucky
later gonna take bus for 1st time after i got my bike
Later meeting YT at khatib 1.40pm hahaha!!
im hungry yet i don't feel like eating

i wanna earn lots of money!
GOD yesterday went or royston tan talk
awesome !
hahaha. but he is just another ordinary chap too
so maybe i can do it too, just like him eh?
hope to become someone that's you know GOOD!

sigh..

I need LOTS OF MONEY!

I WANT WORK !!!
im not feeling awesome-ly well ):

If there were no words
No way to speak
I would still hear you

If there were no tears
No way to feel inside
I'd still feel for you

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

All of my life
I have been waiting for
All you give to me
You've opened my eyes
And showed me how to love unselfishly

I've dreamed of this a thousand times before
In my dreams i couldnt love you more
I will give you my heart
Until the end of time
You're all i need
My love, my valentine

La da da
Da da da da

And even if the sun refuse to shine
Even if romance ran out of rhyme
You would still have my heart
Until the end of time
Cuz all i need
Is you, my valentine

You're all i need
My love, my valentine

Just came back to 921
since so long since i drank maybe aft Yn bdae @ chalet
i don't fancy to drink neither i want to
just realise i smoke more and more
GOD!

Tomorrow gonna go find my mom after sch (:
told her about it she seems cool

sigh
bout my mom
i have nth to say
except i ain filial enough i think
sigh

i gonna earn more money
on my art items simply cost me more then hundred
sigh
im broke after i got my recent pay again

Mac book pro and DSLR seems further
i got to hear from my bro that WE have a opportunity to earn money
(: shall not mention it
hahah i so wanna be duck now to earn money ASAP
im so in need !!

I came to a realisation that love slip away too fast to realise
and i also think that,
no matter how well i do
i can never blend into some one's life
my life is either work or school
being in difficult shoes if i have a partner i guess
i won't have time to meet em up i guess
maybe for those that came down like my bro to do work together
HAHAHA.. but that's my bro only (:

PD rejected have to redo sigh
damn you lam fung
YEAH! tomorrow my DSLR is ready to be collected !
god damn im so excited!

Gonna have a holiday session to take pictures!
for my portfolio
i want to be hardworking
im happy and fluttered that my faci said that i have potential yet...

Love comes and go
we have to give and take
let it go, open our hearts to let it in

Guess the chance have pass by again
or maybe the chance isn't mine @ all
times and times i just wanna know the truth
and times and times i knew the truth
truth aren't always so soothing as it seems
it hurts and make wonders

once again love slip away
some one told me never give up the person you love
i never did but i have to
but it's the past already
once i have put down my mind set, it's set

am i just so hard to guess?
rather i think im easiler to be cheated rather i cheat
(: sad to think this way but it's the truth
how many times do i have to let love slip away then i realise i really have to hold real tight
BUT at times when you hold real tight people just suffocate and leave

alright PD time
sigh...

Times and time you helped me through
without any return you gave your love
no matter how many time i have forsaken you
you never fail to always be there for me
loving me with your all

You never failed to be so much stronger then i thought
with your all i only seen you cried twice
once i admitted to hospital
another is when i scolded you

Time is too short for me to accept but im and i will
this is part and parcel of life
why are you so strong
sometimes i only want you to tell me how you felt..

In need i will learn to be like you which i have the elements of you
to be so strong
in need,i will hide myself
to even smile

things just haven't happen to me
but once 21 it will start..
the thing that has always been inside me
reactivated risk when im 21

... To that someone whom i love
You gave me everything how can i ever repay your love for me?
what can i do for you?
The days for you are getting shorter...

You will be gone sooner than i fucking thought
i heard the news
i cried...
i fucking cried..

Went U.thomsam rd to eat prata @ prata house
with dez, xn, al, sz
hhaha.. crap there pengz LOL!

Hmm then after that bike to caltex to pump oil while dez fetch others home
hahah.. wanted to study end up nth much to study
chat with ky till late then zZZzzz LOL!

im so tired that i slept in class and didn't went for break!
Till now i smoke 1 only not bad...

hahahaa.. work fun play
nothing to blog much..
sigh

wth.. tomorrow work
finally bought dreamweaver book (:
aww happy at last
gonna start portfolio
i gonna save up money god damnit!

Why am i so stupid?
To think you really smile
to cant even see what you really thinking?

i will nvr ever look down on anyone
becus i know the feeling

i have so much to blog yet i cant say anything here
sigh...
sorry!

i know deep down what you are going through
i duno what i can do anymore...


i have.. so much to say...

Nothing much happen
Thurs went car pract GOD!

after that went with sz bugis to meet yk, angeline poh, jas and oh god i forget the name
hahaha sz come ssdc find me (:
then bike down to bugis
found them
walked all the way to PS
GOD! my bag ultra heavy and they walk the ultra long way
Lasalle that road
hahaha me and sz admire lasalle a while then start on our journey again

Then met up with faith that group

went to last time bali house there food court ate ban mee shared with sz (:

after that i realise i FORGOT MY BIKE KEYS
god damn cab down then i run down carpark
luckily my keys are still there
hiak hiak
then home sweet home before that acc sz to take bus
saw shin and terence
talk a while..
HOME!

Today met up with zx hahaha
she pei me cut hair
then go bugis ate pasta mania
buy starbucks
buy wax
DOT! my money flies

she came in boutique to drink bleeding maggot GOD!
shocked!
i went for briefing and she's gone HAHAHHA!

im so tired
going end work i got flu till now
gonna be sick soon
hahaha
went allston hotel that foodcourt ate with yt, novia, pam, jo and her bf
then bike back with yt to lower seletar find
ky, sy, ann, james and eunice

then sit ann car
go khatib
yawn
then i slept at lower seletar after went back
then now home im ultra TIRED!

gonna sleep!
i feel so sick now
sigh
yeah uploaded photos in facebook (:

I shall not blog about unhappiness

I only say i won't attitude people UN-necessary
and the person till now so far i would attitude the one and only would be YK
im not as childish as people think
maybe .. never mind i shall not say anymore

I have **** enough
Till i have none...
hahaha..

I have lots of work to do,
finally submitted my proposal (:

Happy and i have lots of projects to do
god damn i will be so damn busy nowadays..

Till then i hope to study hard
reach the goal i have set
the plan we have set
towards that goal of capital
towards my goal
i know if i want i can
i just have to go for it and try my very best (:
to achieve goals

R/s i already think through
how many tears i have shed
that person also wouldn't know (:
so better off alone back to square one
rather then this i would rather love someone whom will
appreaciate and treasure (:

neglected i can say
but seriously
...
i have accomplish my task given by your
my maturity have won (:

once she hate everything would be solve...
Guess i have solve everything (:
Am i just so easy to see through
stupid to be clever?

im easily hurt
yet portray strong front
use my optimist ism
to cover up for me?

Yes i do not deny
i still do felt for you

hahaha..
just sad
just.. so feel like to start
but i won't...
to even let people have to opportunity to say im childish
never

treat the colder the better
i just don't know what the fuck have i done wrong

Just came back to cancel my slot for Tue due to i can't work
forgotten I've got car practical aww
damn! and i don't dare say
like so last min
my responsibility to check yet i didn't aww
HOW?!

Called Terence to change
he can, but i don't dare tell my sm aww
GOD!

phew going bugis later (:
to collect my memory card hahahah!!

aww
PD proposal submission on 15th i hope i can make it
damn my supervisor is so sucks
He like don't know anything
and want me to know through briefing
to think how my portfolio would look like
i think it's = japalang!
Hahahah i would include everything im interested!
i wanna be a director cum photographer (:

Things have or haven't gotten better.
Things may or may not be the same
but im just hoping that nature takes the best course of life
time have it's tides and downs
things doesn't always goes the way you want to,
so the right time i would do the right thing

Friendly towards many people doesn't always goes good
it bring wrong attention
guess...i should be more fierce towards peeps HAHAHA JOKE PEEPS!
im just who im (:
so be it... HAHAH!!

I have goals in life
i would not let anything stop me from achieving my goals
may it be money
im going to get a pub job soon (:
hope i can find one that starts around 12 end 3 maybe 3 hours extra everyday is not a bad thing after all ahhahah!!
i need more money to get my DSLR and Mac book pro soon
total would be 4k plus GOD!
HOW AM I GONNA SAVE?!

Entertainment time!

The affection i have never stop
glowing beams of light seems to ever glow as brightly as ever
hope that time could be back till the time where feelings were develop
but if it may, i would also hope you get the "one"

Maybe through my actions
i seems to have affection for other
my insensitivity to you
cause things to turn out like that

i guess partially was my bad
things don't always goes the way people would want to
Feelings come and fade
doesn't it?
Too fast to be true for me
Too fast that i couldn't even catch my breath and it's gone

I may not be the "one"
yet im hoping that...things would go the way it goes
now may it be good or bad
i have no say
neither i wanted to say more

I know myself
too well too good to be true

I hope my pressence wouldn't be a disturbance to you
i just hope that, even if things turn out like this it would be better

To love the one that isn't loving you
the feeling i understand long ago
hurts it does hurts
keeping quiet isn't the best solution
this is also what i know long ago
but to always be there
and smile is hard
deep down we are just crying so hard
and forcing every smiles we have
hard isn't it?

I know i can,
i know i can overcome anything
did that done that
no matter how hard we have to
it's part and parcel of life

I always have the never give up attitude towards anything
but towards this i know forcing isn't the best solution (:

COPYrighted PENGZ!

gonna go out to bugis (:
maybe treat YN Dark D add 21 ice cream!! HAHAHAH!!
that fatty xD

Seriously too tired
that i slept throughout the class,
sorry peeps that i contributed only at the end
GOD

Art of story module facilitator is my supervisor a Hongkie
pengz Lam fung think would have communication problem ):

Our story is so damn lame
because it's isn't my forte i guess alien dumb story

im so damn cold
and had been like wearing uniform to school like for don't know how many donkey days ):
pengz!
sigh...

Entertainment time

Too hard to speak
Too hurt to withstand
The only solution is to go
My way, to free myself

I had to,
Many a times things stopped me
yet i still have to

Things that i know,
compile together i get a full story
maybe not very full yet full

I have enough of the emotions
pain, frustrated
to be know im another normal self
gosh
how dumb or dumbest among
maybe im no the worst
maybe im just thinking too much

yeah..
i guess i do
straight to my heart
a single bullet shot through
cause im bleeding

This love has taken on me
she say i felt for you
yet you could take the words so seriously

yet when
you found out the story behind
then you will know
that you're not alone woahhh

You treat me like a rose
you give me room to grow
yet you tore me away unexpectedly
and when i know im too deep

Just fuck it baby
you know i couldn't stand this anymore

you give me strength so i stand tall
BUT
i guess i will never take it babe..
oh take it babe..
just like a rose
woahhhhh...

我爱的人
不是我的爱人

如果不能给他要的爱呢

我只好开始学着放弃了

那么一天看到他的日记

记者不是我们的故事了

看到你和她爱得很认真

我想我应该放弃了

我想的人已不再想我了

你想得人是她为什么要欺骗我

只能看着看着你的背影

在我的视线以漫漫的消失了

我想我该开始学放弃了

这样的痛 苦是你给我的

我不想要就这样放弃了

因我无法再挽留了

我想的人以不再想我了

你想得人是她为什么要欺骗我

Lyrics below was some parts taken from the lyrics that i wrote for my music school
I took out to symbolise something apart

Never will you know the pain
the hurt you inflict
to whom it may concern
I don't get it till i piece up each and every pieces of the puzzle
i got the form
the shape
the notes
but not the "You know what it is"

Blind at the moment
yet i do not want to blindly see
i want to know

but it's gotta be alright babe (:

Copyright PENGZ

Limitation that i have...
HAHAHAH!!
i have way too much
fuck it baby (:
i have the urge to cut
yet i won't
because these only shows how childish im
how not grown up im only
so i just keep it (:

im okay baby..
i will be okay grr

everything is just so f.up
God...
maybe occurs to me

What should i say
what can i say?
Anyway today upsell 6 liq on a wed !
pengz
but lousy on ice cream
did 2 add on 1 mash potato and the other i forgot
1 Espresso shot
still got what can't remember
after work went supper at bedok with dez, xin ni, al, shin-chan! LOL
crap a while follow dez call all da way till eunos familiar then i ride away

didn't went tao huay sorry peeps kinda tired also
so went home
tomorrow also got school and work
luckily fri no sch
i need a break
im fucking heartache by all these
why am i just so fucking stupid?
i don't blame peeps but myself.

Hahahha..
Isn't the first
i finally piece up every pieces of lost links
finally made up a whole picture

yes, sad
is sad
yet im a grown up
i know what im doing

(: peeps don't say im childish if you don't know me

im mature too
yet i can fool around (as in play but not with feelings)

hahaha..!

remember i was never a f.king flirt
things that i kept
seriously im dying inside

This time i really cannot go with the flow
im dying seriously
i couldn't no matter how hard i try

so i stop, i back out
sometimes
i just know how the outcomes would be...
and to know is kinda sad (:

so it's okay
stupid people im the most can trust de (:

but it's okay...

if you realise i've change
guess you didn't realise
i realise changes in you...
all i wanna say...
take care..
those i wouldn't say anymore...

pengz went back to square one ):

Just utterly disappointed
sigh
Utterly seriously disappoint filled with disappointment.
i do not know how to say,
sigh

why?
Today Expression of form (:
fun! hahaha pengz i did quite well first time i did these type
stunt by myself
but still more to improve (:

HAHAHAH!!
God semester 2 is kinda fun,
and im just looking forward to it
hope i can excel to compensate my semester 1 GPA
GOD!!
BEYOND HOPE!

I hope and pray that what i know
isn't what i know yet
i guess what i know seems to be what i know
i know, i feel, im not stupid i guess
maybe im just stupid maybe
soft hearted
fuck myself man
im so so so utterly DISAPPOINTED!
sigh fuck my life

Work was tired i typically slept during PD briefing
God i woke up the ang mo faci was STILL LECTURING!!
i went out to smoke ALONE! ):
sigh cause DNM briefing was today thus the other dip can go smoke
AND THAT YH PON SCHOOL!

Pengz GOD
Today production practicum
doing bout lighting
hahaha im more and more interested in becoming a photographer (:

Gosh i still do not know what to do or the PD
sigh...should e-mail my supervisor tomorrow AWW
GOD GIMMI BRAINS OF A GENIUS!

Well, work @ baby side
then push to main and baby and main and baby!
god im like a waste like no body wants
try hard to help sean as much as i could aww

Terence and Zhi Qiang came (:
they ate at main and when i work baby they went baby to drink and ate wedges again (:
help me in my upselling (:
was so touched

I nearly slept while working
lucky sean gave me drink ice latte dbl shot done by myself (:

reaching behind my mood was totally gone
actually i ain in good mood da whole day after school
neither am i these few days
sigh

don't ask why cause i don't know
and i don't know how to say

My wrist start to ache
like fuck...
but i never whine
nor make a damn noise
my face after back to main was black all the way
sorry if i looked like people owe my tonnes of money
hahahaha!!

sigh
i haven't slept yet

i wonder
wonder is people lying somewhere
wonder why would one lie
where does the problem lies
god help me find a solution to understand human
how i wish to study psychology
(which i want to when i was younger till i gave up medical field)

I guess everyone is lying
maybe not
somehow i understand yet i do not
it's complicated when one thinks too much
i choose not to think and escape into wonders and fantasy
yet when i woke up everything would be still on the dot
scary isn't it?

Human nature is just so complicated
Everyone knows YET do not know
cause you know why?
do you know how to ride a bicycle?
yes, but do you know how to fall from a bicycle?
it's a random thingy
a random occurance that makes us know eventually

Maybe i just hope people could and could not understand me
but seems like no one does
and you are just so complicated to understand
im tired blog tomorrow
night !!

G-dragon (Heartbreaker)

A yo! finally! Is this what youve been waiting for?
brand new G.D! I'm all by myself but its all good
your my heartbreaker DJ and YG
Let me take this song here

I don't give in no matter what, the useful things still haven't died
Only you caused a broken body, dead dreams, lost heart
If it's for you, this one body will fly, will rush to where you're at
However you say goodbye and goodbye to me

I said what's the reason you don't want me
Tell me all about your confident (facial) expressions, do it sadly
Even if I say alright or ask for a chance
I don't like the cold look in your eyes when you turn around once

*No no
Yo ma heart heart heart heart heart breaker
What did I do wrong
Yo ma heart heart heart heart heart breaker
No way no way

I say I'm leaving, I'm really going
To see if you can live well [without me]

This is tedious, this is not going smoothly
My heart's tragedy no way

I ask the same every day, you say that I've changed
Will you please shut your mouth
You speak while knowing who you're talking to
Now I'm out of control, constantly while being alone
In that spot, that place, it's goodbye and goodbye

I said what's the reason you don't want me
Tell me all about your confident (facial) expressions, do it sadly
Even if I say alright or ask for a chance
I hate the cold smile you have when you turn around once

*repeat

I say I'm leaving, I'm really going
To see if you can live well [without me]

This is tedious, this is not going smoothly
My heart's tragedy no way

I'll still be there (inside your turned off phone)
I'll still be there (at the mailbox in front of my house)
You..I still...(even if we're "strangers" now)
I will still be there

Let's be together, those words
It's only sweet for a little while
Why do you not care when
Hey! I'm hurting this much

*repeat

Yo ma heart heart heart breaker breaker
Yo ma heart heart heart breaker breaker
H.e.a.r.t. breaker no way


Nice song by big bang leader G-dragon
First solo album
Heartbreaker

Sigh You're my Ultimate heartbreaker
sigh
another sleepless night i think
Tomorrow working
went TCC to eat my mozza tofu
Dez (HOB aka. SM aka. store manger or Head of boutique) treat me drink my fav caramel azuki frap w/o whip cream and treat me and suez marble cheese cake with vanilla ice cream.
shocking
Thanks a lot!
Got discount too

went to study before that went bras bersa centre to get stuff from art friend and popular
whole thingy cost around 30 bucks?
God..
im so damn f.broke
aww

after that then went TCC to eat
do finish my character design journal
haven't read my pre-reading
hopefully i will remember to read
God im just too tired that i typically fell asleep @ TCC before my drink come
hahaha
sorry but im just too tired
lucky my body can still take it
THANK GOD

sigh
lots to say
but i will not type anything out
just kept in my heart would be enough
need to submit the portfolio scope soon
by oct 15 aww
which is like so rush
i still do not know what should my scope be
and being the first batch to do = NO COPYING

hahaha who cares as STA suppose to be creative
but i simply have nuts idea

whole brain have already contain too much saddness
sigh

somehow i don't feel,
when people say love

maybe i think too much...
i will try to sleep soon

The question
Think carefully about what you want.

The question which was asked long ago

what i want,
i want a stable job
but not a part-time
i want a stable career something to do with STA
i want to study Uni
to get degree
to get a better job
to have a better life
to be with the ONE i love
and...
be stable
and last
simple?
Yet hard...

The one hard to find,
hard to come by
yet...
it's a sigh

Dara (2NE1) - Kiss

I just wanna kiss
I never wanna miss
More tingly one more time
Take my breath away
I'm dying for your kiss
I never wanna miss
Don't hold back any more
Take my lips away
(2NE1)

Baby boy
Why do you always have so much to say to that extent
Stuffy baby boy
I know you're going to confess you love me
I'm not a baby girl
I'm more quick-witted than you think
Every day we always go back to the same place
I don't know why the heck you even do that to me

Baby boy
Remember how I fell for that confidence
My baby boy
Your tempo is so much more boring than you think
I'm your baby girl
Why is it that when we separate, only my hands shake to that extent
A bouquet of flower is great, even a ring is great but
I guess you just never know


Don't speed up
Don't tell me boring stories
How would I be able to take it then?
Are you a guy by any chance?

Don't smile
It's so dull
Close your eyes and come here now
And just get it get it

I just wanna kiss
I never wanna miss
More tingly one more time
Take my breath away

I'm dying for your kiss
I never wanna miss
Don't hold back any more
Take my lips away

Hurry up
you let it touch
I never wanted a lot
Hurry up
you let it touch
Baby just for today, please
(uh uh uh uh CL)
Don't let me go

come on and let my body bounce
Don't test my patience
Today again, I'm 'bout to luz control
As if my heart is dynamite
Tik tik tok tok time goes fast
Please please stop stop this night is more last
The image of you smiling like a fool
It's hard for me to bear it, killing me
If you want me too let's go
Dancing, my heart is disco
As if you're making my surroundings spin
Without a word, A UFO that quickly flies away

Don't speed up
Don't tell me boring stories
How would I be able to take it then?
Are you a guy by any chance?

Don't smile
It's so dull
Close your eyes and come here now
And just get it get it

I just wanna kiss
I never wanna miss
More tingly one more time
Take my breath away

I'm dying for your kiss
I never wanna miss
Don't hold back any more
Take my lips away

Hurry up
you let it touch
I never wanted a lot
Hurry up
you let it touch
Baby just for today, please
(uh uh uh uh CL)
Don't let me go

Love is dangerous
Your gaze is so poisonous
Right now swaying, the two of us
But we just feel so good

Love is dangerous
Your lips are so poisonous
Right now swaying, the two of us
We dangerous
in danger danger danger danger

Love is dangerous
Your gaze is so poisonous
Right now swaying, the two of us
But we just feel so good

Love is dangerous
Your lips are so poisonous
Right now swaying, the two of us
We dangerous
in danger danger danger danger

Nice MV
sigh meaningful lyrics

Sometimes i really think
the one always there are the ones being neglected
while the ones whom throw them away are the ones being treasured
so unfair is the world eh?

why? sigh

In school now, End class like 30 min ago which is like 3pm God damn early ?!
First time think for the past modules would not happen like how it will be like today
God tomorrow having the briefing for the portfolio thingy
Have to attend die also have to attend 12-1pm

Have to be discipline (:
Later am going TCC bugis to study
today's is about alter ego
means another self of you today's module is character design quite cool though
but need to do journal
and i have done my reflection journal!
damn fast right?!

oh yah when out to smoke saw junice? i don't know how to spell the name
and ber !
that heartless ber, so long never find me this kind. ):

School was, okay not bad
my class got chio-bu HAHAHA!!

Interesting or not i do not know yet,
oh ya got this 1 girl looked like calista
pengz she just have common face =X

duh!!

Study plus work
im so tired and sleepy and hungry
aww

Sometimes i realise im just hopeless
and sometimes i just find something so wrong

never mind
feeling will fade eventually and i understand
maybe ...it happen but not for me
aww

hahahhaha!!
overtime peoples feeling me will fade just like how they forget me
which is good yet not good
i don't know what the hell im talking about

but expected though
seriously am i just so childish?
seriously i do not think im
and my class GOD now playing DJ-Max so lame?!

im hungry waiting for YH TO END HIS CLASS GO SMOKE WITH ME!
SLOW LAH YOU YH!!!!!
tmd tmd tmd i will slap you!
dare to say i smoke machine
hahahah!! pengz

sigh
am i really that complicated?
actually im very happy go lucky already
sometimes i just couldn't hide the saddness anymore
but never (: i will try harder
later actually have to go see sinsei
BUT i do not have the money to,
so maybe forget it HAHAHAHAH

Did i mention it hurts damn bad when im working yesterday sunday
sigh...nearly teared

but im strong (:
no worries

sigh sch starting later
9.15am E24D and E24E
aww like just beside only?
and fri im off! No sch! damn cool

Holiday too much till i do not want to go sch
Sian already
yet i can't or else next time prepare to eat grass hahah!

Work today was so DULAN @ baby side
sigh, i feel something bad is starting can feel ya?

i have tonns to thoughts unspoken
Never seems to be happy though
though i did for sometimes
yet, deep down am not yeah?

sigh...

Seriously am i childish?
Being good is wrong
sometimes i feel so sad bout things
i wonder

i wonder who is actually lying and who is actually stating the facts
i wonder...
really have a lot to say

somehow sometimes i feel my efforts are not being appreciated
and like somehow
being neglected
somehow i feel damn demoralise
and sad

It's okay cause i will smile and let it go through
outside i may seems okay
trying to be strong and don't tear
because of the status of im a bung
i have to, maybe to many people and that's why im like that and have to

no matter how hurt my hand
i just kept quiet
like when i go NAFA take ice coffee
damn it's not heavy but because at baby side i injured again

Why always no matter what i have done people just cannot see it?
why is always all my efforts been gone to the drain?

When i really put my whole hearted to may it be love or do things
people just couldn't see it
people just wonder how bad i am
and think im a piece of f.king shit
say me this and that
no one understands me
and i do not want people to understand me
i know myself am complicated
but if you just sit down and listen if i wanna talk and you wanna hear
you will slowly see the real me
i know im not a good person
but deep down i wanted to be loved too
i wanted to be close too
i wanted to feel the care and not be neglected too
but then i think again
am i just a disturbance?
so once again i kept quiet
i would like to always be there as much as i can
i know no matter how hard i try
it doesn't works
it doesn't works this way
sigh...

fucked up life

I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find a place in this world somedayBut at least for now
I gotta go my own way

Sigh
tired
all i can say is sigh...

maybe i do not understand and never will i babe
hope i just can, but i couldn't
and never will i...

By now you should already knew,
by being heartless is the only way to relieve you
the only way to help you

Yes, i treat everyone good
but i had enough of people saying me
say i giving people false hope

You never know your bad
neither did i never say i know your good
yes, i can see it
kinda touch at times
but...this is not like what it used to be

Different already...
I lost my chance, and you lost yours

As i always say nothing can be predicted nor predestinated in future
who knows about the future,
we live life to the fullest today
tomorrow would be the future
and yesterday have already past
it's part and parcel of a memory
no matter how hard you try
it will only be a memory that sunk deep in the heart

stay happy and cheerful like before you know me
be back to the child like girl i once knew
be the good girl i once knew
not the one i know now,
it's so not you

bad things i shall not say
good things are kept in people's heart and touches their heart

that's all i gonna say take care and good bye (:
sometimes im heartless
sometimes i had to be (:
hope you understand cheerios!

Today i upsell 6 ice cream though not a lot
but today is till date my best with 1 liq, 1 side garlic bread too

aww shall improve
im improving!

glad to know i am
Coming semester im free on friday!
OH GOD happy yet sad hahahah
cause i no elective
happy cause it's a fri! And Yt 8 oct i can GO! (: aww so happy!

i had a great day today
and im glad that things turn out alright
had fun too aww (:
work 3pm later
shall sleep aww MORNING everyone


when can i tell you?
Just when would i have the chance?

16 oct 03
The 2nd time

25 june 09
orchard central + escalator

26 june 09
After the long lost

29 july 09
piano session

31 july 09
Visted with my guy friend

4 august 09
NDC

8 august 09
steamboat

10 august 09
suprise attack @ bugis

14 August 09
Dinner @ V8

19 august 09
bishan

23 august 09
the house on the left

25 august 09
interview @ Hq

30 august 09
1st time dinner @ TCC bugis

2 sept 09
First morning

3 sept 09
i know i went into TCC bugis

5 sept 09
quarrel session after drinking

sometimes i just hate to fall in love
cus it simply suck
the feeling of pain

It's just so hard to understand someone
i guess i will never will
maybe i did understand but not fully
neither will one understand fully i guess

I can't wait already seriously
on outside i may seem painless
but actual fact sigh
how long can i resist the pain?
i kept quiet
so that i would feel that i ain weak
im still a bung w/o pain yet at times i really wanna shout
PAIN AHHH knnccb kam pua pain...

i mean my wrist (:
same goes to my heart

neither i like to be pity by people
i don't want people think it's just a freaking wrist
damn FUCKING wrist yet i wanna say like i so kelian
hahahha lucky i didn't (: and i won't (:

even when im just holding a damn light helmet!
the pain is excruciating
just a f.king light helmet!

Just hang up the phone with Yang Han
hahaha.. sch reopening
kinda feel like my holiday is damn fast
well, i have to work hard for the future (:

later 8 plus wake up go see sinsei
sigh hope i can wake up and still be alert for work
im waiting ...
yet something crop up
but it's okay... ):

i kinda regret punching vivo that plastic ass thing
make my finger couldn't heal and like a permanent fking disfigured bone
maybe it's just a finger
many would not see
seriously i mind a lot
and seriously that finger too made me have phobia
and it's seriously still hurts a lot too

how it feels when your bones have been crush by your own hands?
typically crush it into pieces
permenent disfigure
for your fking useless ex-gf

i have tonns of scars on my left hand
sigh...

i fear tomorrow go sinsei
i will hear the same old thing like my fourth finger
it can't be cure it won't be heal

that time no matter how many times i went back to sinsei
it doesn't seems to heal
sinsei say no gym
yet i still went yes im stubborn

by right i can't even hold heavy stuff
everytime i just hack care
when on bike
i knew i have to go sinsei
like a warning
shaking in pain
i feel damn weak for that whole hand
i tried to press in the clutch it jerk
cause i have no strength to press
damnit
i hate this weakness
like a weakling
yet i dont want people to care to show only how weak i am
im not even i sick i also don't like people to care

lucky it's minor cause im not to the extend that i cant even hold a damn pen
many a times i feel like getting bang by car
to see who actually cares

many a times i feel like cutting yet my scars stopped me
and i don't wanna break my promises that i have kept for 2 years or longer

many a times i feel like punching the wall
but my 4th finger stopped me from doing
suddenly it's like STOP please don't do it, it hurts

sigh
many a times
maybe i didn't cause i become so fucking useless ):

i wanna sleep yet i cant
i wanna cry yet i don't want
i wanna tell everyone how i feel
yet i can't and do not want

sometimes i just think if everything just kept it to myself would it be better
maybe it does

i know i shouldn't feel this way
suck!
i can't stop but to
FUCK!!
i have to get it outta my mind
maybe im too used to people not caring (:

i have to stop being like that
it's so wrong
sometimes
i just have a lot of thoughts that are unspoken and have not told a single soul
just i do not know who can i trust
imagine those that state and say how much she loved you yet
could cheat and lie to you
i just wonder how and who can i fully trust?

hahahah! ironic isn't it?
maybe in my life i only trusted 1 person (:
i doubt that person knew
but yes i did (:
sigh... i shouldn't wait
see tomorrow how
i couldn't wait for tomorrow
sigh...

sometimes i just wanna die see who cares
and i doubt anyone care (:

hahaha..i try go sleep even though i know i can't

i burn my shirt while ironing sigh what's wrong with me?
im just tired
off to work !

If you are Aries:
You are very romantic. You do not hold back your feelings and are very expressive in love and romance. You are very charming and amiable. In any social gathering, the opp...osite sex is attracted towards you. The opposite sex likes you because of your good looks and sociable nature. Since you attract so much attention from the opposite sex, your steady partner may feel jealous and possessive about you. But you are faithful to your partner. You are a very spontaneous lover. Your partner loves your little ideas of love and romance. You are a dynamic lover and wear the pants in your relationships.

Your kissing style:
You are a fantastic kisser. Your kisses are unforgettable.

To attract you, the opposite sex must be:
passionate, very active, not very sensitive, effervescent, etc.

You are more compatible with - Sagittarius, Leo, Aquarius
You are less compatible with - Cancer, Gemini, Pisces, Virgo

Hope you would get well soon within these 2 mth
hope everything goes well

Entertainment time

How i wish to hold you closer
to hold you tight to make you mine

Times whereby i wanna cry
holding back the tears
i do not understand why

why would i cry

sometimes i just wonder

would i have the honour to make you mine
to let me be there as your angel
to give you my very best

it's since so long
...
since i felt this way

All i wanted you to know is the 3 words
simple, yet means it all

can't help lovin you