I realise this afternoon that i'm madly in love with someone...
I like this sentence (:

Anyway, is my brain failing?
i don't know
My brain and muscle,
i'm scare

Maybe i'm just scaring myself...

Just finish copying SOP
God, i'm tired
But copying and remembering is different (:

Dropped a water glass today
Lucky guest is good enough
I held it
Just like i normally did
but when i put it,
it just slipped and dropped

This is not the first time
but is the first time it really broke
sometimes,
i put the glass
yet,
it didn't goes to the place i wanted to

brain can't control my muscles?

I don't know
My right brain doesn't seems to function well
I have strength...
I have...maybe i don't

Just say about squeezing the damn whipped cream
My hands shiver
Not normal shivering
I don't know why
This is also not the first time

Remember when i played ball
This happens when i held a light stuff
can you believe it?

Maybe i smoke too much
Maybe...

Tomorrow gonna be in bar
I have RP mascot yet to design

I have my dreams
but it seems to drift

I have lots of uncompleted work
but i have a job

I need money
I finally found a solution
but my parents stop me

obstacles that i have to overcome
i'm a free thinker now
yet,
sometimes i wonder
is god testing me?

My life isn't that bad as compared
but can't i have a better one?

How do i make it better?

Can i succeed?

Pondering
Wondering
Hoping
Giving
Taking

Will i mark up to the top someday?

I would say yes
I want to say yes
but can i?

I hope i have much more confidence

Yes i have?

Or do i not have?

I'm contridicting my life
Yes, i'm
Because life doesn't always goes the way you want it to
Maybe it does
But it doesn't

Complicated thinking i have
yet it's so simple
Do i need a chance
or do i need to create a chance?
Can i grab it?
Or have i lose it?

I wonder again...

Those chances that i didn't grab
will it surface again?
no, maybe it doesn't
Alethia told me once
But i forgot what she said
but the meaning kept inside
maybe i shouldn't mention
it's a memory

no it's a lesson

Chances are made
and when chances are made
you have to grab it
before it's too late

But not everything is too late
because somethings are just there
BUT
have you ever turned back and looked at it?
have you just stretch out your hand and grab it?
somethings are just left behind
all you need to do is to open your heart
stretch out your hand
it will be back

But simple things is
have you ever turn around and look at your surrounding?
Appreciate them?

Yes?
No?
The choice is yours
the chance is yours
do you want it?
or do you want it to slipped away

Have you ever regret?
Why?

Think....