Wednesday, December 30, 2009
@ 3:12 PM
I just realise i have been dwelling in my thoughtsWrong thoughts,
Wrong thinking.
I need to wake up
And i have...
I'm still growing
When i thought i always think for people,
but sometimes choices is to hurt people.
The choice you made
The thoughts i have
selfish thoughts
I thought i could not hurt anyone
But yet i'm hurting again...
When then i can be GOD!
Joke
I never wanted to grow up
Growing up early
learning so much things
thinking for people
i thought i did it
Now i realise how small i am
how much things i couldn't do
Simple things
Hurt someone
It's not the last farewell ♥
Monday, December 28, 2009
@ 2:15 PM
I'm lostsearching for my soul
What am i finding exactly?
I don't know
suddenly my fire is gone
I don't know what i yearn for anymore
...
nothing
I don't yearn for anything
Maybe too much suppressing
I suppress each and every feeling
I'm to my max soon
again
maybe
nowadays i become weaker
Suppress isn't good
but neither i wanna to say it or show it
Maybe is the pain i suffered
Made me just wanna the alter ego of me
Alter ego
completely different from who am i
maintaining someone isn't you
isn't simple
but why do i feel so complicated?
when something is just so simple.
For example
i just have to say out
No means no
As in what i'm feeling now
what im suppressing is my feeling
simple don't think
yes i don't think
but sometimes simply cant helped it
especially when you're alone
like..now
anticipating
waiting
hoping
searching
yearning
wanting
wishing
I suppress the feeling i have
because i don't want that feeling to overtake me
and i would end up hurting like i did once
for me i will never show
even though i show it's never complete
i will hide
as much as possible
i won't say i love you
unless
i mean it
i won't because i don't wanna show
sometimes it's obvious
so i tend to find others ways to hide
hide away from my emotions
emotions are redundant
i don't need and neither i want it
worst when it overpowered me and i felt weak being controlled by my own emotions
simple
"I cant love you, I don't want to love you but i love you"
Simple sentence yet complicated
Just a sentence
nothing much
aww
i'm so busy that i seldom blog
It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 12:17 AM
Pondering and wonderingSigh
It's like happening again (:
Haven't i been blogging
well that's because i'm so busy
Things never go the way i wanted
I'm kinda suay
Season parking and road tax kena stolen
for fuck!
tmd...
sigh.. what to do???
kinda emo
Today got scolded at work
for my relanctancy
what am i thinking
why am i doing the wrongs things when i know im wrong?
Hahaha..
Maybe cause i'm thinking too much again
Stupid me...
Where is the love??
So feel like writing something
like so long never write
like wanna write a story
would you believe if i tell you i love you?
hahaha.. nah lousy story
as in for a title..
or was this something i wanna say LOL!!!
make a guess (:
It's not the last farewell ♥
Tuesday, December 15, 2009
@ 12:24 PM
My laptop has been down these few daysultra broke these few days sigh.
Everyday was filled was filled with
"I have to study"
Even though i'm having holiday now
Life is like studying daily, working
I don't looked forward to days like x'mas
it doesn't excite me anymore
People are in and outta each's person life
sometime you realise you are also just a stepping stone to someone's life
you're there at some point to make someone grow a lil?
or maybe you just meant to pass by that person...
did a body analysis
I'm normal with my whole body!
Except i'm over at somewhere (:
My left arm muscles!
and my body muscles mass was over too!
HAHHAAH!!
So happy!
Can i make my mark to become a better me?
sometime i just so disappoint in everything
people ard me changing
when i realise that well..
HAHAHAHA
nothing
It's not the last farewell ♥
Friday, December 11, 2009
@ 1:05 PM
I think of you a few times a day
And what you always tell me, "You're the love of my life"
How I think of you, how I love you
I've told you that it's all real
And what you always tell me, "You're the love of my life"
How I think of you, how I love you
I've told you that it's all real
But I knew how you were feeling
Even though you deny it, you've changed
But I cherish you, I can't let you go
Till the end with you, because you're the only one for me
But you weren't the only one who was shaken
Now I forget all those thoughts because I'm so sorry baby baby
Even though it's hard for me, I won't leave your side, baby
Even though you want us to end, I will still be your lady
Even though you drink and don't call,
Stop thinking of other girls, come back to me,
and you look at only me too
Tonight I waited for you again
I couldn't help the falling tears
I thought the trust I had for you would soon be gone
And I was scared, because it had become true
Whenever I see you having a hard time because of me
I've thought about letting you go
But loving someone other than you
is something I can't do, I want to be with you
I hate myself for being selfish
I'm sorry but I keep wanting to hold on to you more and more baby baby
I just want to keep you by my side
I always think of only myself
And it drives you crazy, baby
But just how you want me to stay pure,
I want you to do the same
I want to be your last girl
look at only me
Even though you deny it, you've changed
But I cherish you, I can't let you go
Till the end with you, because you're the only one for me
But you weren't the only one who was shaken
Now I forget all those thoughts because I'm so sorry baby baby
Even though it's hard for me, I won't leave your side, baby
Even though you want us to end, I will still be your lady
Even though you drink and don't call,
Stop thinking of other girls, come back to me,
and you look at only me too
Tonight I waited for you again
I couldn't help the falling tears
I thought the trust I had for you would soon be gone
And I was scared, because it had become true
Whenever I see you having a hard time because of me
I've thought about letting you go
But loving someone other than you
is something I can't do, I want to be with you
I hate myself for being selfish
I'm sorry but I keep wanting to hold on to you more and more baby baby
I just want to keep you by my side
I always think of only myself
And it drives you crazy, baby
But just how you want me to stay pure,
I want you to do the same
I want to be your last girl
look at only me
It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 12:57 PM
Update bout my life!Bored these few days
was bout sch sch sch and just...school!
Laptop crash on tue
Back ache...
did accupunture
f.king pain
went down acer for repair due to 10 dec UT!
damnit
went down AND my laptop is healed!
KNN!
waste my whole trip!
spend freaking don't know how many hours did my character design UT
how i yearn to sleep well
im just freaking tired
i need a rest
YET
on coming production coming on during holiday for filming
GOD!
busy busy
i need a break from work...
i gonna die soon
"accomplish your dreams"
It's not the last farewell ♥
@ 9:56 AM
Busy busy busyUT grades for art of story is disheartening
aww
SADDEN!
Character design was okay ONLY
sigh
busy with school
Portfolio
bla..
i want to take a long break
sorry peeps if i take a longer time to reply
(:
It's not the last farewell ♥
Wednesday, December 9, 2009
@ 8:37 PM
Keekee: "you don't run away and text me ask why i meet MUSHROOM!"
It's not the last farewell ♥
Tuesday, December 8, 2009
@ 11:11 AM
Painting left un-doneNot planning to do i think
i scare i do wrong on canvas..
It's not the last farewell ♥
Monday, December 7, 2009
@ 8:18 AM
So long since i bloggedso so so busy
yet i put i work so many days for the 2 weeks
am i stupid?
LOL
GOSH!
Yikes!
Rushing to work
10-4pm
WOW!!
i'm so tired
AHHHHH...
fat fat fat le!!
Cut hair (:
shall upload my photos soon (:
It's not the last farewell ♥
Tuesday, December 1, 2009
@ 3:54 AM
Finally chiong finished my Flash animation for web page banner ONLYGuess what i just vomited,
didn't feel well
Don't know why
suddenly feel like vomiting and i just vomited.
God disgusting lah..
Atrocious!
I'm so not feeling well,
Gonna chiong my webpage
Gonna chiong work for money
Gonna chiong on Mascot
Gonna chiong and learn more bout photography
Gonna chiong for each and every contest availble
I'm gonna die of chiong-ing
No one see my efforts ):
sigh...
I still feel like vomiting
I'm getting weak,
Fuck!
sigh...
It's not the last farewell ♥